It sounds like there are some difficult thoughts to contend with!
Sometimes thought can seem like a "barrier"!Yes, resistance is happening...thoughts like "this is hopeless", "why to do that?", "it's running in circles", "nothing is going on" are arising.
"This is hopeless" seems to be a barrier but ..... is it just another thought?
Can someone or something be found who owns this thought?
The best way to deal with these thoughts is to LOOK at them.
Really look at "this is hopeless".
Look at the thought.
Does the thought point to another thought? A story?
Is there actual experience of colour/image or sound?
Really LOOK each time when a seemingly disturbing or resistant thought appears and check:
If you made a particular thought appear
If you wanted that thought to appear in the first place
If you chose that thought to appear
Do you have ANYTHING to do with any thoughts?
This is great to recognise this Zulu....sometimes confusing thoughts arises and gets LOOKING very dificult. Thoughts are seen as truth and not as Ae of thoughts. Stories are seen as truth and not as fiction. Then, annoyance arises and LOOKING is left aside or uncomplete and false answers are given.
Thought can seem confusing. But isn't confusing just another thought?
What exactly is confused by thought?
Thoughts seem to be true. Bust isn't "this is true" another thought?
What exactly is it that believes the thought?
Have you noticed that learning anything new seems to cause a "battle" with old "habits" and "beliefs"? Learning to drive, learning to ride a bike, learning new computer software can all be very "annoying". "Resistance" is completely normal.
HOWEVER, can you find anyone/anything that can be "resistant"?
What is the Actual Experience of "resistant"?
In LOOKING through the illusion of the seperate individual, all beliefs are being questioned at once! This can seem both challenging and frightening.
When these are around LOOK at them. Look at the thought and look at any sensations. What is behind the sensation?Yes. There is fear, frustation and annoyance. Even knowing that those are just thought labels LOOKING gets harder with them around.
LOOK for what it is exactly that can feel 'fear', 'frustration' and 'annoyance'?
What is the AE of 'fear'?
What is the AE of 'frustration'?
What is the AE of 'annoyance'?
LOOKING is the key to seeing through the illusory 'self'
It is clear that "I" is pointing to a story?Yes, it's clear.Is it clear that the thought label "I" is pointing to a story about a seperate individual perceiving?
Really LOOK Zulu. Then answer this question
Is there any resistance to this discovery?
Is it possible to find anywhere a seperate individual "doing" and "acting"?
Really LOOK. Then answer the question.
It is clear that there is nobody doing anything at all?It SEEMS so, but ACTUALLY there is nobody doing anything at all. Thoughts arise pointing to stories that there is someone doing something. And those stories can be very convincent...in AE nobody can be seen. Things just happens.
Is there any resistance to this discovery?
Stories are very very convincing. Try to LOOK past the stories. Try saying "blah blah blah" over the "noise" of the thought story and LOOK.
The associations of thoughts looks like stories...actually they are stories.
The actual experience of a "painful thought" is sensation + thought label that points to a story about pain.
Example:
Edward cried rivers of tears after his friend, Charles, died in a car crash accident.
The AE is: AE of Sensation + AE of thought label "rivers of tears"
"Charles died in a car crash accident" is a story pointed by the thought label.
Thought labels like "emotions"and "feelings" (sadness, upset, tears) point to stories about pain.
This seems clear.
Are there any questions about this?
Thanks Zulu.
Good luck with looking at resistance.
Best wishes
Nina

