Good evening Tim.
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And there are many other synchronicities,
Yes, i accept that they arise, and are noticed now, but don't know how they happen, why they happen, and certainly don't put any meaning to them. Just enjoy them.
Ha - You may regret saying that.
Haha, regret doesn't happen any more.
i can't change anything that has already happened.
since the last significant experience (observation of true nature) i have found it more difficult to be mindful and more aware. Any ideas?
Yes. The first idea to arise, said; Tim thinks he has control over mindfulness and awareness. Hahaha...
Almost every time i play golf, i have to search for a ball in the rough. The number of times that i have looked and looked, only to have someone point at my feet, where the ball sits, staring up at me.
These days the intention to look around my feet as i search, happens more.
What you are seeking, is closer than your nose.
Set the intention to notice what is here, now.
The idea that you should be (more) mindful and aware, is like searching 10 feet in front of you.
The recognition of this is here and now.
The line that was the trigger for vince to wake up, was "the mosquito bite (of seeking) will never heal, while you continue to scratch it."
That single line, (said to me by Eric Gross) broke the back of 43 years of seeking, and plunged me into the portal of THIS IS IT!
Whatever i wanted, was story. Current experiencing is ALL. ..and the best i can DO (ha) is be entertained by my puny attempt to describe it.
experience of observing my true nature was valid,
See. Mind comes in and corrupts every experience. (if it is listened to.) This story about "true nature", it's a corruption of that experience. Valid or not, is another corruption. What happened to the pure, pristine nature of that experience ?
It can't be explained. It can't even be described to communicate it. It was a joyous thing that happened, and now you want it back because it means something ???
How can you notice what is happening now, when your head is full of stories about meaning and validity ?
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You know the answer to all of these questions. Pretend you are me, and answer what you think i would say.
Don't expect satisfaction from those answers.
The purpose of the question is to satisfy the mind in its obsessive compulsion to explain and apply meaning.
Instead of getting sucked into the content of the questions, look at the 'hoped for' outcome. Do you want certainty ?
Is life-ing open ended ? Is there any such thing as permanence ?
Are you also saying that these circumstances arise out of 'the great mystery'
Some of the necessary conditions that make up current circumstances might be able to be explained (to a degree). Other conditions aren't even seen.
Consider that everything that has ever happened anywhere in existence, since time began (and before), had to happen exactly as it did, for THIS to be exactly the way it is now.
If one thing, a million years ago, happened differently, then THIS would be different. Grok that ?
But, the short answer to your question is that it doesn't matter.
If wondering happens, i am amused. (at the mind looking for unattainable answers)
So, what is happening in the now ? There is wondering and amusement. ..and then a next something.
or are you saying that every moment, every action, every thought is related to everything else
How can i know this ? It is a good story, but can experience expose this ?
It is just something else in the great mystery. i'm too busy (life-ing) to put time and energy towards pondering this.
Are you saying that you (in any shape or form) have absolutely zero influence?
There is influence (conditions) and some might originate in this organism. i can't explain how or why they happen.
If the thought occurs to intend something, it is more likely to happen than if that thought doesn't arise.
But what of contemplation before action?
That might be one of the conditions that makes it more likely to happen.
You said before that i can imagine myself a better life
Yes, and when i said that, it was likely to trigger intent. Did it happen ? (language and past life conditioning, would feed the illusion that you made it happen)
i suppose every question can be answered with 'everything just happens' but this feels like a bit of a cop-out.
Certainly, it
could be used as a cop out. i am more interested in copping in.
Saying "everything just happens", is a story, just as current scientific explanations are. It is still in the realm of trying to satisfy a gluttonous mind.
What about allowing the question to not be answered. Maybe, one day, out of the great mystery, will pop an answer.
Life-ing is wonder full !
'm sure you understand that there is genuine intent here to come to a point of relaxation and complete acceptance (with no lingering doubts or confusion).
Yes, i do understand. There is no doubt here of your genuine intent.
As a human being, you are capable of experiencing a full range of experiencing. Are you saying that you want to limit Tim to something less than that ?
Does that mean that a Self actually exists ?
No. i must be thick or overcomplicating this
Yes, over complicating it.
However, once again (grin), that is what is happening. Can you undo what has already happened ?
What do you do when you see that you are overcomplicating things ?
Haha, laugh.
You know, there isn't a movie or a stage show or tv or anything that can provide you with the entertainment value of the mind. It is (literally) fantastic. Enjoy it.
i still have to keep reminding myself that i am a movement of Life/God/Nature.
No you don't. If memory was an issue, then it is only dead knowledge. ..and anyway that story over complicates everything.
Does the sense of separation ever disappear completely?
Yes, but it will probably come back from time to time. It is a sense, that is useful, but doesn't need to be believed.
Do you mean to dissociate?
Yes, except how can you dissociate from a non existent self ?
i mean to take the perspective of a witness.
It approaches wisdom. Seeing the bigger picture. Allowing a soft focus.
This appears to be a technique rather than a shift in awareness?
If the intent is 'successful', then a shift in awareness will happen.
but am hoping that intellectual understanding will allow the mind to calm enough to allow acceptance to be experienced.
Oh, so you have a story that calm mind is necessary for acceptance ?
i have to say vince, it really is a privilege to make your acquaintance.
Ha, and you have no idea of how wonderfull it is having you provide some conditions that 'help' me.
(but thankyou for having such a loving story about vince)
i can relate to almost every client, whatever problem they present!
Yes, empathy can be pleasant or unpleasant. It certainly assists in experiencing that full range of experiencing.
love (and empathy)
vince
