Postby sixohs » Fri Oct 23, 2015 9:27 pm
Ive been practicing meditation lately. doing 2 hour sit downs daily. Might crank it up to 3. I just focus on a point on the wall, and breathe. Whether or not this will help me "wake up", who knows. The way I see it, all this talk about waking up, is just talk about more concepts. Who am I trying to convince, that I am asleep, or I am awake? There is no body. There is just breathing, sensations, lights, colors, but it all comes together to create the reality we that we are. In a sense, I am the "universe". I am a nobody. But I am everything. meditation makes the "situation" more apparent. Then thinking about it. Experiencing what already is, seems to be snapping me out of it. The good news, I am limitless. The bad news, the more I practice, the more I can see through everything. People in my life are becoming nothing more then patterns/behaviuors/methods of expression. Its like the micro expressions give everyone away. At the same token, any "social anxiety" I had before is gone. I hope this benefits who ever reads it. But even then, this is just another script. Theres always a game going on. The ego is very necessary, in order to fulfill the roles. But behind the mask, is only energy. or whatever.
