Hi Sarah
So then - ready for some final questions? Take as much time with these as you wish and answer in as much detail as needed. I will then check them over to see if there is anything I have missed and then show the other guides to see if 'I' have missed anything if that is ok with you?
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No just thoughts that were assuming separation without checking for truth. Life is exactly what senses register with thoughts and feelings taking place but their contents are fictional.
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
The self seems to be a re occurring thought that has come up constantly throughout life starting from before memory can even recall. It is the assumption of ownership of life, the body and the thoughts themselves. The concept becomes believed to be true because at a young age others who are trusted validated separation and later in life the ability critical thinking develops. With critical thought possible the ability to differentiate to find truth about the inaccuracy of indirect sources is possible so thought can expose life as it is.
3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
There are feelings of great relief and clarity. The difference now is fear has dissolved, unpleasant thoughts and emotions still arise but dissolve fast as there is no fictional manager to in a futile attempt try to dissolve them forcefully. Life is as it always was or could possibly be but truth makes everything more interesting since there is no more constant focus on the subject "I".
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
There were several smaller hints along the process but the realization that all senses and thought was taking place at once which left nothing but thought deconstructed "nothingness" and an understanding conceptually that nothingness was impossible in direct experience so what was thoughts to be nothing is actually everything.
5) Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.
No, it seems the rapid pace at which life can be registered by thoughts and sense perception creates the illusion of free will or decisions. For example what happens is an act is thought about the action takes place without a doer then thought comments after claiming ownership of action. This is just what causes the assumption of choice but so much action takes place all of the time without thought even noticing. Life just happens, no doer of actions, senses, thoughts, feelings. Life as a whole seems to be its own guided force in itself in constant change and non permanence .
6) Anything to add?
"I" would just like to thank you Sarah for your help, all of this just unfolded they way it had to and life will continue to unfold, transition the way it does. What is also important to convey to anyone reading is in between this process when there is no clear truth known and much confusion there is really no need to be afraid. All of the faculties needed to life will still be present, life does not need to be labeled or separated at all times but if the labels are needed they will still be there. Feelings, thoughts, memories will still all be intact but just seen as thoughts. The capacity to experience life expands and with it the ability to see what is becomes clear.
