Well nothing really, can I? :)What could you do to prepare yourself to just be and answer from that place of not knowing?
I don’t know if layers expresses it with accuracy, maybe as an spiral moving; as time went by I kept stumbling back to known old situations, concepts, feelings and thoughts with a new, clearer understanding, always renewing itself. I was conscious of having several ‘masks’: ‘the seeker’, ‘the knight in the shining armor’ and the ‘victim’ were the ones I recognized. When they ‘came on stage’ I recognized them as such, I acknowledged them. Little by little they stopped coming on to the stage. That’s the best way I find to explain it.Can you give examples of those “layers” that have disappeared?
I think it was reading a quote from the app (or several) about labelling and/or direct experience. The day after I was able to somehow ‘merge’ with the trees I was looking at by letting go of language labelling and concepts, like a child who knows nothing of the tree. I don’t recall the exact words, not even the message (I have a terrible memory), it must have just clicked somewhere, but I remember the impact of those quotes. Maybe it was only one in particular, I don’t really know.4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
Well, one can make decisions, the important thing is where they come from I think. In my case, decisions normally come to me. I don’t know if you want me to describe these concepts in general or who I ‘live’ them, I’ll write what comes to mind. Intention is energy, attention, direction of awareness, to me. Free will, mmmmhhh… there is, and there is not. For you are free to do what you want, yet what you really want is aligned with what is if you are present. Choice is a little bit of the same I think, something in-between free will and decision. I don’t make choices, the ‘answer’ (the choice) comes to me if I wait. I now almost never come to a crossroad where I have to make a choice. Control, we don’t have any, any at all. I remember the feeling of thinking that you have, and how stressful and anxious it makes you feel. That’s the ego forcing its way forward I guess. What makes things happen I still don’t know, life, an intelligence of some sort, only one that rules everything I feel. How it works, I don’t know, by living? What I am responsible for…. Myself I think.5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.
Nope, I’m already exhausted :)6) Anything to add?
