Thank you Joseph and liberation unleashed. Now I get to have a red name to identify with;) The strange thing is that I notice enlightenment was a goal. It was like I wanted something more. And once you see through this you have no desire anymore. But everything is still as it was. Its like I have ...

Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No. There was never.

Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

The illusion ...

Sure. I'm ready.

Wow. This is a difficult thing to do to explain the true nature of being. I watched those and a few other of Rupert's videos. One thing that really struck me was his description of how matter arises within consciousness instead of the other way around. He explains it really well. Thank you.

Have ...

South African Time. 8 hours ahead of CST. Sometimes it seems to live in thought is necessary in the way society has played out. But your description fits my current view completely. It is almost like the universe plays out through experience itself. Things work out on there own.

I am interested in ...

When has it ever not been now?

Never. I get it.

Okay there is no control over the present moment. Not if you are directly now. You have no control whatsoever. Things are what they are.

This is quite a lot to process. I am going through moments of acceptance and moments of complete denial and trying to escape what is. Fortunately now is one of acceptance, however earlier I was barely able to type due to the anxiety that thoughts were bringing up. Will follow up tomorrow after a ...

Hi Joseph.

I just noticed an intense desire to control arising within me. I believe my entire notion to become 'enlightened' has come from a desire to control. This afternoon during my meditation session I started having a dream like experience and as soon as I became aware of the state and that I ...

No. Thought has no sentience.

Has there ever been a moment when you were not aware?

No. A moment that awareness hasn't been would only be a thought.

Does a thought actually know anything?

No. It presumes to know based on its identification with a past and future that never really exist, but that it has identified with ...

Almost as a 7th sense in experience.

Oops. I mean a 6th sense.

Im going to go a little more in depth here as it would be nice to have these thoughts stop arising unnecessarily. I know the experience of sense perception. That is to say the true I, awareness itself, knows the experience of sense perception now, in the present moment.

The issue I am having is ...

You know all sense perceptions.

Every time I think of a doubt it is disproved by direct experience. The main doubt I keep having is that of dependence on the body for consciousness. I guess that is all that comes to mind right now. The thought that sense perception requires the body. I guess it is difficult to have a direct ...