Hi, Alex, I will now answer the questions, although there are big doubts arising about the whole thing all the time. The conditioning and past habits (which raises the question of who was conditioned and how can that still be in place if the illusion is gone) are fighting back really strongly ...

I feel better again today. But thoughts keep trying to take over the show. Even if I don't believe them, they persist. And of course the more I resist them, the more they persist.

I would like to forget about the questions for a day or two as the thought of them creates some tension. Putting this ...

I seem to have taken a little step back.

As I began answering your questions, this resistance came up. It had been growing all morning. The knowing I had seems to be veiled. I look for the veil, but all that is found is a tension, this familiar contraction around my heart, and a sadness, but no ...

Thank you, Alex. I'll take a few days to ruminate over these questions and then give you the answer.

Thanks for your reply, Alex, and the words of encouragement.

Today, the euphoria is gone and from time to time, thoughts take over completely again and there's fear that things are back to where they had been. But then the seeing comes back as soon as "I" become aware of being caught in thoughts ...

Oh, what a weekend! I think I may be very close. Since Saturday, I’ve (just a note, I’ll drop the quotation marks from “I” and “me” for the sake of ease and quicker typing, this doesn't imply there is an “I’) been feeling soo big, filling everything. Thoughts come and go, but I don't necessarily buy ...

Alex, thank you for the new pointers. I feel I need to look at these things for a while, not just a few minutes. I'd like to "ponder" on all this over the weekend and come back to you on Monday. I hope that is OK.

Can "seeing" by itself provide any information about the solidity of an object? What do you think about this equation: "seeing" = ''color"?
Everything on top of color is thought about seeing.

No, you’re right. You catch me out every time. Of course seeing can’t provide any information about the ...

What exactly is a "feeling"? Have a good look... is there a certain physical sensation, a contraction in the abdomen or pressure behind the eyes..? Is this sensation itself good or bad?

Yes, a “feeling” is a physical sensation, in my case usually a contraction in my chest. I suppose the sensation ...

This I that isn’t there is feeling pretty bad today. Another almost sleepless night, spent looking at the busy traffic of thoughts, sensations and images that were popping up. There wasn’t a story, just these things appearing and disappearing at random. No body could be found, just localized ...

What is the "me" that thought is telling this to? Where does it point to? Is there an entity that is pointed at or is there only another thought?

Just another thought, when looked, there’s no entity there.

What is an "object"? Can there be objects if there is no subject doing the seeing? Have ...

Great observations! What you are describing is what we call direct experience - looking at this experience in a direct/unbiased way without believing what thought might have to say about it. This is a great tool to see through many believes.


Thank you , Alex, I’m glad you approve of my way of ...

To get started, please let me know how you see yourself. What are "you"?
The standard view is that "I" refers to a person. An existing thing - a body/mind.
The body is "me". The thoughts are "mine".
The body is controlled by me and choices can be made by me.
What is your view? Write what comes up ...

Hi, I would like the help of a guide.
I've read quite a few threads on here and other things on this site. I've also watched videos of Rupert Spira and Francis Lucille and read Rupert Spira's books. For a few months, on and off, I’ve been investigating the existence or non-existence of “I” and, like ...