Dear Vivien,

Thank you for the questions.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully ...

Hey Vivien!

Yes, hit me with the questions! :)

Love, Sayah

Hey Vivien,

There is a whole community of others on FB, who have also seen through the ‘self’. Actually, there are several groups to join. Furthermore, if you like, we can continue our conversation in another thread or on FB.

Thank you. :)


Look, this whole process of ‘liberation’ is not a ...

Hi Vivien!

First of all, I couldn't answer to you yesterday at all. Too hectic, long day at work, and too many big questions from you (to answer when in hurry and tired). Hope you are still with me. :) But it was interesting what happend yesterday after reading your mail. Huge emotions arised! Like ...

Hey dear Vivien!

Can you see that this is an improbable expectation?

Yes, I can clearly see it now :) Also another experience happend a week before we started this process. It lasted like 15 minutes, but was significant. Just came from my balcony, went for a cigarette, and when comeing out, it ...

Hey Vivien!

I wrote yesterday honestly EVERY thought that I have about what expectations I have of liberation. There is understanding, that they are only concept of thoughts. But I wanted to put them all out, so I could see how ridiculous they are, and have nothing to do with reality. That I could ...

Hello Vivien!

But does this mean that there is a desire or an expectation not being lost in the content of a thought?
Or not having an emotional response?
What desires it?
Is there a ‘me’ that wants to be free from thoughts, or this is just another thought?

Yes, there really is desire and ...

Hey Vivien!

I had no time in the field to catch up this conversation, but now I'm back home, so let's continue. And yes, I really want to "go all the way through" with you, Vivien. :)

Can we say that there is an objective, independent reality?
If a tree falls in a forest but nobody (human or ...

Hello Vivien!

I have felt a little different today. Somehow more light. There clearly is something happening.. Meeting people is easier somehow.. like "I" forget "myself" and just be more present, not that much concentrateing "my" mental narrative. I also did today Reiki for my friend, and for the ...

Hey Vivien!


When you’re thirsty, do you need a thought first that “I’m thirsty” in order to feel thirst in the body, or does the sensation arise first, followed by a mental label “I’m thirsty”?

No, I don't need a thought of beeing thirsty. Sensations comes and then thought.

Is it possible ...

Hey Vivien!

Thanks for the introductions for the quote, now it works.. I hope. I read your post, and after that just started to cry. Felt enourmos gratitude towards you and.. well, for everything. Funny. Like with no reason first just burst in to tears. This is so great..

What makes feel that ...

Hey Vivien!

Sorry I cant somehow use the quote, so i answer without it..

I saw wonderful dream last night. I saw very clearly this whole thing. How thoughts were just thoughts and how there no "I" just thoughts of "I". That all my life I've been listening to that voice, tjonking its content is ...

Yep. I see now more clearly, that "I" is actually just a thought. Strong thought. The memories aren't real at THIS moment. It's just a thought too! I look at this body and realized: hair grows, without "I", breathing happens without "I"..etc.

This body is real, feelings in this body are real and ...

I forgot to tell you before, that yesterday, after i responded to you, i felt sudden enormous joy! Im in the middle of break-up with my boyfriend and that too, i didnt feel sadness or other "bad feelings", just such a big joy and love for him and for everything. For a moment, i didnt see this break ...

Yes, i understand that i cant stop thinkinh. Thoughts just come and go. I really cant stop them, or controll them. I tried, but it is impossible. I can not also predict them or push it away..it only gets stronger, if i try to think only positive, then thete is immediete thought of opposite ...