Dear Nona,


A continuous awareness of no self would be a State.
Is there any awareness you experience that is continuous? Is there anything of which you are constantly aware at all?

I see the point. Tricky.
Indeed, it seems the continuous awareness of anything can not be. Aware of sth is ...

Dear Nona,

Good you ask. I'm confuse today, things seem less clear. It is different then 2 days ago where the awareness was continue.
Before I ask other guides to look at your answers, I want to ask about this: You wrote
the presence of a self hasn't disappear neither.
1. What do you mean by ...

Dear Nona,

My today homework... long one.
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No, nothing more then awareness + thoughts + sensations. There has never been an "I". But the presence of a self hasn't disappear neither. It just ...

Dear Nona,
No, it does not! In every single waking moment you are having a direct experience of sensations! In every single waking moment you are seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching!!
What requires a tiny bit of attention is to focus on sensation instead of following the thoughts!
Yes but ...

Good morning Nona,

Yesterday evening while reading again your below instructions, I've experienced the illusion of I-tought.
Wouaw, happy!
I was looking at the hearing and suddenly it was obvious there was no I. Saw through the illusion! Then did with the touching, again, no "I".
Don't no if it ...

Dear Nona,

Hope this email find you well.
Here some updates.
The mind still requires a lot of attentions to let me observe with d.e. What a paradox! The none I-thoughtness mind state, requires energy. I guess this is related to a lack of practice. So my observations don't appear to really help in ...

Dear Nona,

Thank you for your comments.
Is not easy to remember. I'm now wearing a colourful bracelet as a reminder to look! In the next days I will concentrated and increase my efforts only on those below. I will then hopefully get back to you with some more useful material:
1. What I want you to ...

Dear Nona,
This may be a matter of the language rather than a matter of what you have actually SEEn.
outside d.e., it's still a surprise to see the ego hanging around.
Do you Observe the ego hanging around? With the eyes? With any of the senses?
Notice a sense of self might be a better ...

Very Dear Nona,


1. You are not always aware of or thinking there is no self, but if you stop to consider what you mean when you say or write "I", "me", "self", are you then aware there is no self?
2. In Reality? Are you ever unable to reach an experience of no self at all?

1. Yes, I'm aware of ...

Dear Nona,

Thank you for your labelling inputs.

The process of identifying does not stop and it is where I can go into confusion.
I don't know what you mean by this. In direct experience, in sensation-prior-to-thought, is there any I-dentification at all? What, in DE, can I-dentify with anything ...

Dear Nona,
Orientation only to sensation is deep d.e. If you find you are "less concentrated", then please shift focus to sensation.
Ok.
By any chance do you know the technique of labelling (noting) sensations as they arise? It is used in meditation (like in Vipassana) in order to train the ...

Dear Nona,

When I d.e., I don't always find the same tranquillity. I can be there, but often is not.
Please describe what is happening when you are in d.e. What about d.e. is not tranquil?
Simply that when in deep d.e. it's very calm. When only oriented toward sensations, in a less concentrate ...

Hi Nona,

Is sense-of-self an actual entity Self? Or is is just a sensation plus a thought?
It should be a sensation plus a thought, but I've been trying to check that and I couldn't figure it out today.
Why "should" sense-of-self be a sensation plus a thought? Because I asked? Maybe it's only a ...

Hi Nona,

Thank you for your email.
So Check it!! Is sense-of-self an actual entity Self? Or is is just a sensation plus a thought?
It should be a sensation plus a thought, but I've been trying to check that and I couldn't figure it out today.

Did you think that sense-of-self will completely ...

Hi Nona,
There is a self but it's thought.
Notice that all thoughts about a self refer to other thoughts about a self. Thoughts about a self are self-referential — that is, they are a circular argument. Thoughts about a self all rely on other thoughts about a self for "proof". Check it! Have you ...