So sure, it is ok to say "this person is walking," but it's not the truth. It's just a thought. Only movement.

If you LOOK, right here and now...is there body/mind that is in control of anything?

No, it is just moving around and being affected by things.

Just look in the next few moments right where you are...
Is life happening TO someone? Or is life just happening?

Life is just happening. What I ...

What/where is 'this mind/body' in direct experience?

It can be seen, touched, heard, smelled, etc. Nerves are “the mind” and they can be seen/touched etc.

Is there a 'body/mind' that understands?

Maybe it doesn’t understand, and it is more accurate to say that it is conditioned, or it can ...

I'm going to have to answer these tomorrow - very tired

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, and no.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

I think it starts ...

Just know that doubts do show up from time to time.. Expect them to.
It doesn't mean all is lost or that this hasn't been seen.

what a relief!!! They keep coming but they always are seen through. I had a few times during the day where I was so absorbed in a story, and then a thought, “remember ...

It is hard to explain exactly what stickiness is, but I can see when a thought sticks and when it doesn't.

The word sort of doesn't make sense because there is nothing to stick to, so there never was stickiness.

I suppose, then, if a thougth sticks, then it produces more and more thoughts and ...

Is this an intellectual understanding only, or have you seen this?
Is it true that there is no separate entity, no “me,” in real life?

I’ve seen it. When I had doubts a couple days ago, those were just thoughts, and i was able to effortlessly question what was behind them and see it was nothing ...

I can assure you that if you stay out of thinking and just take an honest look
at reality, the answer is obvious.

I can definitely see that doubts are just thoughts. They just really stick sometimes (not currently)

True or false... if you look for one, is there is an 'I' to be found? How about ...

There is no me that exists.

I am oscillating between being able to see this clearly and being overrun by doubts

What does that say about the validity of a self?

Can’t prove the self is there.

Can you see how the story of Erica was constructed?

Starting with whenever I learned to think “I,” a bunch of thoughts/memories strung together created a story. Just like any story, it’s just sentences and/or ...

Tried to smell, taste, see, touch, hear a self, and couldn’t, could only sense other real things.

Negative emotions are really useful - I can see there is a thought and a sensation. This body does stuff, but since it isn’t owned by anything, no one cares. Life doesn’t stop, there’s nothing to be ...

I see that thinking harder creates more difficulty.

Erica - which is more 'real'..... a grain of sand.... or a 'self'??
Why?

The grain of sand is more real because it can be experienced - seen, touched, etc. A thought can reference it. Thoughts reference self too, but it can’t be experienced, it ...

Also, tonight: I am investigating the “separate” part of the “no separate self.”

I think this means that there is no separation between the experience and the imaginary experiencer. is this correct? So it is not experience -> experiencer, just experience. I have a plant that grows toward sunlight ...

What are thoughts saying about this?

They're saying, "Why can't I accept this? Why can't I figure this out? This is way too complicated" And "there is definitely an experiencer."

I don't understand what you're saying here…

Sorry, that was garbled. You asked me what looking means and how it is ...