I don't much remember the feelings now, just being unhappy at the time. It just happened, just living life as usual, eating, sleeping, working, the usual and one thing just led to another. No actual decision, just events happening, or experiences happening, you know, arguing, being lonely, not being ...

Life is a hell of a lot more relaxed. I used to have chronic anxiety, trying to control events and people. Since I had been a victim of violence in the past, I had difficulty being around people since people are not predictable. I felt I somehow could control them by pleasing them or being liked. I ...

I am glad you are taking the time, I was just getting frustrated. When I did the pointing outward and then inward it became really clear that when the word I was used there was a feeling of emptiness and light. I became meaningless as it used to be used. It almost feels like someone died. I don't ...

Let me know what is wrong with my answer please.

This is contradictory. A decision I make when there is no self. Nothing happens, Moment by moment life lives itself. There is awareness of direct experience and this just happens. Obviously I don't get it. Thanks anyway, I appreciate your help.

There is no self to make a decision.

Of course I did it. Thinking about it is nothing at all like the actual experience of it. We did more then a few, I didn't remember the name of it is all. Making a decision or thought is nothing like eating as far as I can see. There is just DE, thoughts are not reality. There is no decision, things ...

hahaha, there is no experience of decision making.

There is no experience of decision making, because no one is there to make any decisions. It just happens. There are no decsions being made, there is only awareness as it is of experience happening. But give me the exercise and I will do it and report back.

Sultana exercise?? could you tell me again, I am not familair with that name. thank you, smudge. You mean the one about pointing outside and pointing in?

Hi Smudge, There is no self, so how is it possible to decide, lol? Hmm, a co-worker on the job is annoying, there is no decision to be annoyed, it is just the awareness of the thoughts that arise during the day. It is the ongoing awareness of DE as it progresses. There isn't any decision to not be ...

Thanks, for your help and it was a pleasure to talk with you and learn too. :-) Destiny

Smudge,
Thanks so much, sorry if I am not wordier, that's just me. Any more questions fire away. Words are so inadequate sometimes to describe things. Smile...... Destiny

Hi Smudge,

2.There is no separation, no self and no others. Just what is Now. Of course there is no one to learn, no general environment, no parents, no birth, no death and no society.
There is not any self anywhere at anytime, ever!!!!

LOL, sorry to be confusing, it was a before and after story ...

Answers..........

1.No, there is no separate self anywhere. No there never was one.
2. The illusion of the separate self starts as soon as you start learning, you are conditioned to see a separate self. First your parents, then your general environment promote the idea of a separate self.
3. It ...