Hi Perry,

Thanks for your further questions;

The story of I is built around an idea; thoughts (of a self or me) and around a body that experiences or perceives those thoughts and sensations, it’s as simple as that.

There is nothing that leads ‘me’; there is the experience of thoughts that come ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your reply.

I’m not unsure about what I have seen, but do resonate with your suggestion of diffidence – fairly typical of ‘me’.

When I read others accounts of stepping through the gate, I relate strongly with what they are saying so it makes little sense to deny what’s been ...

Hi Perry,

Sorry its taken an age to get back to you! Here goes…

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No there isn’t, all there is is the present moment and ‘ I’, ‘me’, ‘self’ doesn’t exist in the present, it only exists in ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your message - I've been quite unwell the past few days and have had a couple of problems at work too so have been rather preoccupied I'm afraid, I promise I will reply properly soon!

Lindsay

Hi Perry,
Just to say that I've been away for a couple of days this week and will get back to you as soon as possible!
Best wishes,
Lindsay

Hi Perry,

Good to hear from you, and thank you I had a lovely holiday.

Tell me, which is more rooted in reality: the direct observation that there is no self to be found in experience, or the passing thought "maybe I am kidding myself"?

Is it possible that the doubting thought is actually just ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your reply.

I think the words ‘ there is no ‘self’ and never has been’ brings up a deep-rooted fear of annihilation.

so how does this look now?

Well it just doesn’t seem to affect me – its strange really – something that a few weeks ago seemed to be so daunting now seems ...

Hi Perry,

When I wrote those answers they sounded true, felt true, as I re-read them they still sound true though I have doubts as I write that perhaps really I do just know that these are the ‘right’ answers.

I don’t feel something has shifted in particular or that a particular belief has dropped ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your reply,

is there 'self' at any other times?

There is a sense of self at other times when I’m locked into a story about ‘me’ or ‘mine’.

Has there ever been a 'self'?

Well yes, in a way there has – through my story or thoughts there has been a ‘self’ or through other ...

Hi Perry,

So what kind of 'existence' is this..

A non-existence!

What about 'you' then?

'You' just doesn't exist

Do the past and future exist other than as thoughts?

No they don't - they are only thoughts.

Best wishes,

Lindsay

Hi Perry,

Good to hear from you – I’ve been waiting for an email alert that you’d replied but I must have disabled it somehow – hence MY late response!

there is perception, experience, awareness - this is undeniable, yes?

Yes that’s definitely true!

try this: come back to the fact of perception ...

Hi Perry,

Welcome back, I hope you had an enjoyable holiday.

In answer to your questions:

‘looking into the experience of wanting as it happens, what do you find: is there just wanting or am ‘I’ wanting?

When I think about wanting – for example – I’m tired after a long day at work, I want rest ...

Thankyou Perry, have a great holiday!
Lindsay

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your reply and the clarity over the labels we use to point out our sense experiences, collection of experiences and ideas.

So in answer to your questions – what kind of label is ‘I’ when I say ‘I think’ or ‘I want’

When I say ‘I want’ its based on experience – pleasant or ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for your post and noting of the doubleness running through my post – and I think that mainly I ‘see’ in terms of the thinker rather than the self.

Am feeling like a bit of a lame duck/rabbit today! – I think perhaps I don’t feel I am able to consistently ‘see’ anything of much ...