Hi! Yes I can relate to this jumpy mind and I think I need to explore this further now, don't you think?

As settled as I can be in this exploring :)

Hi Richard!

Thank you for not getting sick of my wobbeling around in this ☺

No I can’t find what isn’t clear but it’s probably about the expectation that this can be understood yes, ”felt” in every second. But it has become clear to me that what that means is that I want thoughts with I to stop ...

But as you can tell the complete letting go, trusting, easing hasn't occured other than that morning and somewhat occasionally since. But the clarity that the "I" is nothing but a thought has not quite re-appeard, at least not as clear, since that morning.

The looking doesn’t require any effort, can’t be run by the imagined ”I” that are just thoughts clogging up ”efforting”. Can’t say where I am (or not ☺) with this but it doesn’t seem to be quite clear, don’t you think? The motivation is still very much present even if there’s confusion in this since ...

i'm sorry for answering so shortly but I think I have to sleep now, I will answer more thoroughly tomorrow!

no it just happens

What is there to resolve ?
Thoughts are popping up, why would they stop ?
What has changed to make things happen differently ?

No everything is as it always has been and all is experienced. Yes why would thoughts just stop appearing just because it’s seen that that’s what they do along with the ...

Hi Richard!

I’m posting some more about what’s going on:

What is:
The sens there’s a self in control is still present. Along with that there’s an undoubtable seeing that this sens is not based in a real existence of this ”I”.

How can they co-excist? Illusion and truth? It might be that there can ...

Sure Richard!

Can tell you straight off that the clarity that presented itself during that morning hasn't quite been felt since, it seems a bit slippery this thing...to be honest it's as if the "I" came back strong celebrating and everything was lost and I haven't had the time to attend to this as ...

Hi Richard!

Something happened a couple of hours ago but the clarity that presented itself is now somewhat more blurry (”selfing” going on right now??)…you’ll see where it’s lacking right? But wow it’s been an intense morning!!

1) Haha no! There’s the unquestioned belief of separation, reinforced ...

I answer yes to the first two questions and no to the third, no doubts at the moment at least :)

I am happy to continue working with you looking for a deeper seeing and an easing/releasing of doubt. My efforts are towards helping you see rather than winding this up. You are also correct to notice all this is just thoughts and feelings coming up. Can you look and just feel the feelings/emotions ...

This feels important:

This communication we’re having can onle be had at a certain ”level”. This could be a way for you to determin if some part of me (brain?) has gotten it or not. This is a process going on between us in a realm that a part of me is not involved in other than watching with love ...

But when looking does happen, i can find no self in experience. How about you ?

No there’s no self in the sens that there’s a controlling unit, that thoughts can ”rule” as this unit, but there’s a strong presence and awakeness…

How is this "will" noticed in experience ?
What can you find in ...