Hi Sunil,

The fact that these kind of emotional and 'identified' thoughts come up, and the fact that the intensity of thought and emotion has increased in many cases since I started this process, may be why I talk of doubts or people detect doubts in my writing. There IS an underlying sense of calm ...

Hi Sunil,

I think an example of a thought that's been troubling me lately might be the best way to explain it.

I've had difficulties with a friendship recently. So much so that thoughts about this friendship come up all the time. Some of those thoughts are things like 'why do they act that way ...

Hi Matt,

Part of the process here is that we make sure there area no hidden corners in your understanding which may ruin the time we have spent together. In that light contemplate these questions and comments not as test of sorts. Answer them if you feel appropriate.

Great, thanks Sunil. I've ...

Thanks Sunil

Hi Sunil,

Here are my answers. Bit rambling, sorry :-)

Excellent. Here are the questions. Take your time and let's see how deep is the rabbit hole.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No , nothing physical or real. Just ...

Thanks Sunil, I'll take a look and post back

Hi Sunil,

I'd love to try and deepen my understanding. You mentioned before that there may be some questions that help with that.

I can't believe you've been talking to me for nearly three months. Thank you so much for your time and effort, I deeply grateful for your understanding, advice and ...

All is well. There is no I thought. Just a thought. See if all thoughts are unmarred if you took out the word I from them.

I or not makes no difference to the thoughts. I want to write sentences without the I as well, but the seeking world is so full of people muttering sentences like 'it is ...

Have you had moments when you are driving and you know you are supposed to take a certain exit but just when it comes, the mind is distracted and yo do not? If you were in control would that happen. Do you beat yourself up for that mistake? If you do it is just a way of training your brain to not ...

So, if my thoughts and actions just appear, then they will carry on appearing whether or not the thought that they are mine crops up.


IS there a doubt in this?

No, no doubt.


And you have a problem with intellectual understanding? Isn't that how everything starts in life? You understand ...

Hi Sunil,

Today is feeling like one of those times when you see two mirrors opposite each other and the reflections of reflections seem to go on forever. What I mean is I watch what is going on, both in thoughts and in the 'outside' world. Then I catch myself thinking that 'I' am watching, and that ...

Hi Sunil,

Just reflecting a little more on whether 'I' am in control.

Because there are often thoughts about an action for hours, days, or weeks before the action it always seems as if the thoughts cause the action. But if I pay close attention, the action arises in the moment, and its an abstract ...

This is very often the case. This is still part of the illusion. Sit with the fear and look if life will be any different if there were no you. Would you be driving different, doing your business different, relating to your loved ones differently? For them to be different, there must have been a ...

Thanks Sunil, I'll think on what you've said and post again tomorrow. Enjoy the weekend.


Matt

Hi Sunil,

I read your blog, and maybe it does explain it. I've found coupled with the resistance I've been snappy and short tempered, unusually so. I could put it down to tiredness or similar, but it feels more fundamental.

As to why the resistance and the possibly linked emotional reactions ...