also my partner just asked me how i felt about possibly being through and i told her throughout my spiritual path to date i have felt enthused excited depressed inspired useless etc etc that type of thing.
For the first time i feel competent.

yes i do feel done

cheers thanks sp
for all support and patience so far

nothing to add at the moment

whats next ?

also in relation to the first question it is clear to me that there there never was an i it is entirely makey up
ps also there is no gate its just normality

question 5.
i dont decide or control any thing. maybe it is more accurate to say anytime i look for a decider perceiver controller ther is noone there. it still feels sometimes like there might be a controller until i turn my attention to that idea and realise it is just a thought ,idea or story and ...

question4.... i cant think of what pushed me over . it feels more like a whole series of little pushes that are just continuing. today reading through the looking section on the enlightenment app plus looking more and more at what is happening all i see is no self at deeper and deeper levels.i just ...

question 3 ...... Its like an enormous weight has been lifted a sense of ease can be accessed pretty easily. stuff comes up but when i remember to turn my attention to it it dissolves. the self appears in one or other way but it dissapears with attention . whole pieces of my story are dropping away ...

The self is a fiction. An experience arises and quick as a flash[usually] the mind then goes "that must be me" and labels it as such. This happens with feelings,thoughts perceptions,volitions,even the sense of aliveness itself. Even in relation to breaking through the gate the I appropriates ...

never really any tangible i in the first place

sorry just realised that my last answer was not clear
i clearly see that there is no entity self etc
just wondering a little bit about ever. it is after all a very long time
at no point in this lifetime absolutely....
maybe i would like some more clarity on ever .... i assume i am probably ...

will take questions one each day
first question - there is no entity self me in any shape or form
was ther ever i need to consider a bit more.. it does not seem stable yet

also feels like we are exhausting all possibilities of belief in a cotrolling witnessing self

mmm yes that was confusing me sometimes.
a thought arises with me as subject and i convince myself that that might be me sometimes
but that is only bullshit... again it is another thought... it is never anything but just another thought