Hi Seenam,

Sorry for the delay, I've been a bit distracted.

What you write sounds so very close but I'm afraid I'm running out of 'tricks'. I actually don't know what to ask next.

I'd like to leave it here I'm afraid but I can ask for another, more experienced, guide to continue if you like ...

Hi Seenam,

Lovely ! Really nice.

'Understanding the truth'? What is there to understand ? Is anyone there to understand 'it' ?

whatever I put attention on, was becoming real/coming into existence for me.

Yeah! Does that attention belong to anyone? Can you find her? Relax, open the heart, look ...

Hello again,

It still feels like this which I got from another guide when I asked for help !

" "when I ask there is no answer". she is not looking at all but using spiritual knowledge ie when I ask a question there is deep silence, or there is no answer etc. So she is spinning her own wheels and ...

Hi Seenam,


There is no belief in I in the now; however there are things planned for the future that are dependent on I as per planning - so there must be belief in I that's why things planned for future are dependent on I.

That sounds like it's still thought based. Seeing through the illusion ...

Hi Seenam,

A 'sense of self' will remain but you haven't said 'aha, there isn't any such 'thing' .' Absence of proof is not proof of absence !


It didn't matter to the thought 'I'

Is it just a thought or is there a belief in such an entity still in place?

The first reaction to these questions ...

Hi Seenam,

It's great the way you have stayed with sensations, it is the key to so much.

It felt like the wanting, not wanting didn't matter any more.

Nice! Didn't matter to whom?

When thoughts and sensations are there what is thinking and what is 'under'. the sensations? Look and let me know ...

Hi Seenam,

Yes, I think there is an understanding of the truth.

That is worse than useless! You are relying on understanding rather than looking and looking a lot! There is no such 'thing' as truth out there to be understood; you see what is present in your experience or not.
Knowing how ...

Hi Seenam,

I still fight for what is felt to be right but during the fight, 'I' is not involved.

'Fight and 'right' sound like what 'I' does and what 'I' holds onto.

At times there is a feeling that why other humans doesn't understand the truth but again it doesn't matter.

Do you think you ...

Hi Seenam,

I'm sorry for the delay but I'm in the middle of buying a house and have an old friend I haven't seen for ages staying with me.

I'm running out of questions, you seem to have got it but not got it !

Can you tell me from the heart what you are looking for now. Is anything missing?

All ...

H Seenam,

there is a strong 'i will do this' and 'i will not do this' behind the thoughts. These will do and will not do are trying to protect the 'me' from any harm that can be caused to it.

That sound like a description of wanting and not wanting ! 'I will do this because I want to enhance my ...

Hi Seenam,
Thoughts become much quieter when wanting and not wanting are seen through. They can be felt as sensations an d they are what run the show. Can you feel wanting or not wanting 'behind ' thought? Does that register in the chest or belly ? Do the sensations
need thought to 'go off on one ...

Hi Seema,
This is odd without wi fi but it sounds like it's all cool. Is there anyone at the heart of this experience ?
Anything at all?
Steve xx

Hi Seenam,

This is kinda weird.

No I have not found this state. I have just realised that there is no other truth than the 'now' (which can be happy,sad, painful, cheerful etc)

That is full awakening - with provisos. 'Truth' ? - is there any such thing in experience?

'Now' is in quotes - I ...

Hi Seenam,

No I have not found this state. I have just realised that there is no other truth than the 'now' (which can be happy,sad, painful, cheerful etc)

That is marvellous !

I think an imaginary special state was created by mind and then the mind was trying to achieve that state.

This ...

Hi Seenam,

Do you think you have realised what you wanted to when you started ?


There is a lot of conditioning over a period of time/looking for a special state of happiness - enlightenment/Nirvana. It leads to rejection of present moment as not a good enough state.

Absolutely. Who is/was ...