Thanks very much T.
Immensely grateful.
Long haul!
xx

Is there mind outside the experiencing and thought?
Is there a body outside of experiencing of sensations?

No and no.

"Body" and "mind" and "body-mind" are concepts, labels, not experience itself.

There is just awareness/aliveness/energy - just physical sensations arising, mentations arising in ...

Thanks
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Hi T..

The point of the dream, which came after the end of the retreat and seemed like a culmination of it, wasnt that "I" was accepting "my own" death.... It felt more like an opening out, a dropping of that kind of framework... There was just an accepting as an inevitable part of direct ...

5) Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.

I think one of the reasons why so much fear and doubt arose in April was to do with fact that if it was really and truly acknowledged that "I" had no control over events in ...

Hello T...

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

I think it was probably seen in April.... Certainly something really shifted then - but there was doubt and a lot of fear. The whole LU process has been a ...

Yes, okay, going deeper.....

"Consistency of perception" is mental fabrication, an attempt to articulate or understand (and grossly simplify) experience.. There is, in reality, the ever changing arisings of experience in each moment... awareness, aliveness... "Consistency of perception" is ...

Hi T

Yes, the illusion of a separate self has been seen through.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there is no separate self, me, I - not has there ever been. Right now, for example there are sensations of fingers on ...

Thanks T
Will post something tomorrow afternoon
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Yup!
S x

An update... My last post here was on April. I had the final questions and seemed to get slightly stuck on the last one re. control. So I decided to take a while to reflect and then come back. And then I was kind of overtaken by events. I generally felt very open, relaxed and happy - great sense of ...

Hi T

Will do

S x

Hi T...

‘I can’t control it all’ is giving the self-view a loophole. Belief sustaining doubt sustaining belief.

There is absolutely no entity, self, controller, agent. There never has been, neither ‘here’ nor ‘elsewhere’.

Well, is there?

Unsure how to proceed or what to say.

But don't feel ...

Hi T...

Look unwaveringly to clarify whether you are still sidestepping the ultimate question: Has "the person called S" entirely relinquished all idea or hope of control over anything? At all?

What is 'ultimately' the case is not relevant; the only point is: do you think you have, or have ever ...

Hi T.

Have you entirely relinquished all idea or hope of control over anything? At all?

Good question :)

Okay, the person called S has habitual tendencies involving control. Eg. He is always early for trains and appointments, doesn't like his routine being disturbed, has worried and controlling ...