Hi Matt,
Long time since I wrote last. I've been intensely busy setting up a new business, and also probably needed time to let this process unfold in its own time. Perhaps also some fear about really accepting the truth- and also a story of 'who do you think you are to say you've realised you're ...

Hi Matt,
Firstly I'm so sorry I've not replied over these last two weeks. What happened was that I messaged you and then drove to family for Christmas. That night this body came down with a fever and the heaviest cough and cold I think it's ever had. What followed was a wierd half-world of Christmas ...

Hi matt,
There's a sense of completion about this- and it may be that the 'penny dropped' a few weeks ago, though that may be delusion- don't know, but something radical has shifted. It feels like now seeing the ramifications- and the process of what appears to be 'me' in operation. There is a bit ...

Only just picked up your messages - a day of non stop responsibilities- but thoughts drive this body around and make the world into what it appears to be, but they can't be said to be inside anything- or outside. The world if anything is conjured by them, at least as it is understood to be.
I know ...

Thank you so much for this Matt- it's strangely shaking and stirring and that feels very good though quite disturbing!

Things happen- actions, words, and thoughts and there's a "who is this doing all this?" which is a pleasant and agreeable bewilderment.

So the "don't know"- whether it's a thought ...

Hi matt.
Ok this.much has been seen.
So fat there is no evideence for an indepndent self that i.s not just .more thughts sensations and emotions.
No no real self other than stories of what thr self is can be found.
:n response toyur other questions various "yes buts" appeared- and even anger ...

Hi Matt
Another day of watching/looking. A penny dropped earlier which was to notice fear and thoughts like "this dialogue is coming up to a month and I AAm still not sure I get it and I might miss the boat" etc etc.
And on close inspection inside that is still the expectation that there should be ...

I think i answered most of your questions in that Matt though not in order. I didnt answer this one though.

How does it feel to see this?
Very ordinary but disconcerting to keep seeing layers of ehat appears to be me in control only to see that these too are part of the picture. Its humbling to ...

Is there or has there ever been an independent sense of self?


No. The sense of independent selfhood has always been one of the fish that t swim in the sea along with all the other fish. whatever has appeared as self had always in fact been the 'interface' b where self and other arise ...

Hi Matt. I'm going to spend a couple of days looking closely to see what these questions point to in direct experience.It happens that I am on a retreat. Not a meditation an intensive meditation retreat but a retreat nevertheless booked many months ago. It is a good time though to examine ...

Hi Matt,
Yes that's it exactly. Reading your words, laughter at the simplicity. The common factor is sensations, thoughts, emotions. Inside my statements was an implicit assumption that "feeling more like freedom" (thoughts about sensations) is better than "habitual patterns" (thoughts about ...

Hi Matt,
Answers to the questions
1) On reading your message thoughs pop up like
"I'm still not getting this", and "darn it I'm not trying hard enough" and "Matt is going to get fed up of me and he's already given masses and masses of time voluntarily- and I'm not quite getting it", and "I'll be ...

Hi Matt,
Sorry for the days delay replying- had a cold and some responsibilities I had to deal with.
Thank you so so much for engaging with this dialogue with such dedication and unfaltering clarity. I think it is hitting 'home' what this actually means in direct experience.
No the sense of self ...

Hi Matt,
I have a sense that this is coming to a completion of sorts even though there is still lots and lots of ongoing wanting and intermittent unease and lots of grasping etc etc. It almost feels as if the reactivity intensifies, to try to divert attention away from this seeing. I do also ...

Hi matt,
Well I don’t know if “I’m hoodwinking myself”, to coin a phrase, but I’m surprised to find that, well, the belief in an autonomous self is at least a bit shaken – if not yet seen through.
Liberation Unleashed was recommended to me by a Buddhist teacher I hold in the highest regard, and so I ...