Thank you Metta, Thank you Shell...
This all feels a little weird--I don't know what happened. It's like Twilight Zone.
I can't put a finger on what happened when and how and what things were like and how things are now but somehow everything feels different--I was going to say "off" but decided to ...

Thanks Shell, I wasn't even aware I was using Course vocab!

Metta,

Thank you for these questions. Here are my answers.

What is it that makes vigilance or shines the light of awareness on doubt?

Perhaps the word vigilance is misleading because it conotes a certain effort on the part of the vigilant one or vigilante (LOL) , assuming its existence, when no ...

Hi Shell,
My deepest gratitude to you. Thank you. I will for sure be in touch and am encouraged that there is a community of ACIM and LU! Thank you again.
Love, Thuy

Dearest Mettta,
1) There is no me. There never has been.
2) What felt like me was never a separate entity. It was an illusion created through a compulsion towards separation and the fear that results. Thoughts aggregate through this fear creating a feeling of self--thoughts acquired and ...

Yes, I am ready.

Is there really anything to fear? I'm not sure. The unknown, but why would there be fear about the unknown if it's unknown? And, actually, everything is "unknown". When I do feel fear it seems to settle in my throat. Perhaps a flutter in my heart, a sinking in my gut. But it passes ...

Dear Metta,
I am looking deeply and agree with all you have to say about all we've aquired and are conditioned towards. I really can't find this self as a separate entity. But there is a reality to this experience merely because I"m expereincing it. I'm writing to you now but it feels very much ...

Now I'm going a little crazy...oh, but who is going crazy...LOL!

Aha, now I see. Who doesn't know? Who is the one that doesn't know? LOL...

Aha, I got it. Who doesn't know??? I don't know...LOL....

Metta,
I don't know who the doer is. I don't know who the generator of thoughts is. I just don't know.
With all sincerity,
Thuy

Hi Metta,
No, there is not an actual identity in a thought...but there is feeling of an identity in the cumulation of all thoughts. I can see that there is no individuated entity that thinks thoughts, only the thoughts themselves create a sort of illusion of a separate entity. It seems the thoughts ...

Hello Metta,

So is there a doer? Can a doer be identified?

There is doing. Is there a doer? What it feels like is that there is a compulsion to do something and then there is a person doing it. Where does the complusion come from? It feels like it comes from a thought. And then an action ...

Hi Shell,
Thank you. Last night when I read your post, I was resistant to giving up on the Course. This morning, I reread and something inside me softened and I am willing to leave it for now with the prayer you've brought. It is a matter of trust, yes. Even as I write that, the tears swell up in ...

Dear Metta,
Thank you. I imagined myself seeing God's house and I wondered what would I do. It would be very difficult for me to knock on the door straightaway...not because I am enjoying the search, you see. But I would not feel worthy. There is something here to discover. I can feel it welling ...