Thanks for letting me know you got my response, I felt like such a dolt- but in a nice way :) I appreciate your questions and the time focusing on this here. Very helpful and satisfying for my desire for inquiry. However now, my desire for inquiry is more of sense of effortless childlike pleasure ...

OK John, like the movie "Groundhog Day" with Bill Murray here I go again! Redundancy is experienced here :) the interesting thing here is that each time i approach this the feeling is different so the answers are a little different.

1) Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form ...

LOL, just had the thought about reading something about losing text so I went back to the "New Users Read This" and saw the warning about long posts and not being uncommon to get logged off. Reminds me of an acronym "RTFP" that my draftsman uses on the finished plans for a project. "RTFP" stands for ...

Hi John,

Very, very interesting. I just spent another hour replying to your questions and I know I was logged in. When I finished I clicked on the "preview" button and my entire post was lost and the log-in screen popped up.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know I'm still here and you will get a ...

John, thanks for the questions. I just spent about an hour giving detailed response but I had not been logged in so when I hit save the next screen that popped up notified me that I had to be logged in to reply and lost all that I had written :( Too bad that screen doesn't come up as soon as the ...

So, where do you feel you are at?


I'm in a very comfortable, stable place that feels like home. Everything feels "invited", experience is and that's great, It's a pleasant, easy, effortless feeling.

Do you feel you have clearly seen through the illusion of "Ray"?


Ray is seen as the story of ...

I would say that every entity is a different portal of perception. Like a coin has two sides, neither side has the same view of what is happening because of positioning but it's the same coin, it's the same existence being viewed. The view named John is having a different experience than the view ...

Hi John,

Very interesting day today so far. The experience so far has been one of "unknowing" I guess to describe it. Like watching (watching not a good descriptive word, noticing better for me) a movie. Noticing thoughts,etc. and wondering what is coming next. Noticing my whole experience ...

1. What's the experience from the inside when looking out at the world? Is there any thing left to look out?

I wouldn't describe it as "inside". It feels like I'm a little kid again, like without labelling everything is new. There's nothing looking out it's just noticing going on.


2. If there ...

OK, explore it carefully. Do you mean to just focus on what is happening? Such as noticing the feel of the pressure on the bottom of the feet, feel the muscles balancing the body on the ankles, feel the motion of movement through air, feel the joints moving?

If I do this there is just paying ...

The sense is now of walking happening. There is a choice made between different option thoughts of: go for a walk, take a nap but whatever choice is made then that choice is experienced however it manifests.There seems to be choice, choosing happens based on preference, past memories and ...

Not really, it seems like a never-ending loop. Stimulus, reaction, thought over and over again until we die.

The response I had to your previous post was the idea that the awareness I perceive is no different than any other awareness. Everything seems to have awareness of some sort.Thoughts seem to be a reactive phenomena to stimulation, they just occur like blinking.

Off to golf..

I just had a clue. I was trying to fall back asleep and told myself to just let my subconscious figure things out. As I was drifting back into sleep I had the thought "it's time to get up and warm the sunshine". What this means to me is that sunshine has no warmth unless I feel it, unless something ...

And...you have a great weekend too. I'm playing in a two day golf tournament for our club championship. I'm not that good but still it's fun, love golf. Talk about something that "just happens", that's the only way I can understand what goes on when I get out there :)

Again, thank you for your time.