Hello Cam-RT,

yeah, there's been a feeling I'm on the right track here. My mind is just one of those who doubt and question beyond doubt and question, like "so is the right track or just some sort of new trap and illusion of being on right track", heh. So thank you for perspective. :-) You wrote ...

So what expectations do you have from liberation ?

I feel interested in seeing what kind of difference it may make and want to be open to what may come, although I do have assumptions that perhaps there'll be less internal hustle and bustle, less resisting to "what is", less judging and labeling ...

I'm good, thanks, the swelling's going away and the bone will heal in few weeks.

Anyway, the choice is up to you if you want to continue. My suggestion would still be to put modality on hold, and get the whole "self" thing in perspective then move on to what ever else seems to work for you ...

I've practiced certain modality for some six years now -- It's not about changing or fixing or improving

To let you in a bit more on this: I look at life from the point of view that the natural state of a human being is to be fully conscious of her/himself and present in now without "I" and ...

If it's believed to be an entity, the mind is confused, the body is tensed up. Unconfusing it is simple- bring attention back to now and look once again- is there a me behind the word 'me'?

Heh, feels like that is one way to sum up where I'm at. When I bring myself back to now from that confusion ...

When the state of identifying with my mind & feelings & body is absent

...then again there's still identifying with so called awareness, which is local and located in within my body. Hmmm...

Hello Cam-RT,

it's been a bit busy, I'd like to get back to you with more time one of these days when it slows down. But I appreciate your responses and pointers even though I may write back with just few words.

When an object is seen, is there a seer or just seeing happening?
When a sound is ...

So try this, observe (if you will) "Ville" throughout the day as you go about your daily tasks...Does it require a "YOU" to perform these tasks? or is it Automatic...

Hmmm... few things that have become bit more consious are that

"I" is not required for
- getting tasks done
- having a thought ...

It appears that you've got a lot spinning in the background

I have / my mind has a habit of analyzing stuff. :-)

observe (if you will) "Ville" throughout the day

I will. And I'll get back later, since there's some work to do now. Cheers!

Maybe ego wasn't a good term to be used, since I anyway meant "I" or "me". But thanks for a good description of what you've found it to be! There's so many views and ideas associated with / attached to it, and I think sometimes they are unnecessarily complicated.

So where are all these thoughts ...

Vitakka... So is there another name you prefer to use?...You know, to make this a more personal conversation?

Hi,
and sure, I go by Ville.

What's driving these thoughts?

I can detect a couple of things:
Thoughts give ego the sense of existing, thus they make "me" exist as I identify myself ...

Hello Cam-RT and thank you for your response. I am willing to follow the rule and guidelines, so we're good.

So what expectations do you have from liberation ?

I feel interested in seeing what kind of difference it may make and want to be open to what may come, although I do have assumptions ...

Hello,

I've found my way here and feel happy about it, curious, a bit nervous and frightened to name few feelings. Can't stop now though. I've read the instructions and checked out few boards and threads to get the idea, so let's let the universe decide who'll guide me. :-)