Yes I can, the I is nothing but a thought, the thought itself is not an entity, just a thought. It does not need to be believed in, as nothing needs to be believed in, yet the feeling of separateness from everything still remains, although intellectually it has been acknowledged. When I look at my ...

No, the I is just an idea, just a thought. But this thought is very scared of being seen as what it really is. There never was a me separate from my true self, just a self-created story. "I"ve come back though. But I'm not quite sure I've completely seen through.. Just a glimpse of how flimsy the I ...

the me changes by itself, it is just an attachment to being afraid of losing control, and it clings to the belief in being in control of itself. it's flimsy and very plain, clinging to every doubt and worry available, when it's seen through there is just sensation and contentment, no doubt about ...

Is there a you in control? Has there ever actually been a you there to be in control?
There is a me, but this me isn't in control of anything, although the illusion of control is constantly being created with each new thing that is being experienced. This me surfaces most when a decision has to be ...

Yes I am, but I'm really busy at the moment, I'm going part time soon and moving to uni so I'll have time again. I'll be back, in the meantime I'll try answer the questions asap! :)

Sorry I haven't been messaging much, but I don't seem to be making progress whatsoever, I do try and see where the self is, but the answer no one (or rather an I pops up and says "I already know this") keeps coming up and I don't know where to go... As I'm sure you know I'm super busy at the moment ...

No there wasn't a me anywhere in the hearing... it just happened... but thoughts about the I are still being believed... I see through them, but they don't seem any different from a couple of weeks ago... there hasn't been any revelation or especially A-HA moment, it's all the same as it was before...

specialness - true, not even worth noting

not quite seeing the no-one in control thing yet however,

if the thought of control vanishes, absolutely nothing changes, besides how "you" see things. today sitting on the tube i heard a bag rustle, but immediately the thought appeared that how did i know ...

i believe i am in control of the sensations and actions carried out and sensed because i'm afraid of not being in control. perhaps this belief stems from being afraid of things not going my way. the way that i want them to go. no matter how often it's proven to me that it is not me in control, but ...

I do indeed get you.

A part of a conversation I had with a friend a while before I got your message:

"i get you, but everyone around me just tells me to make my own decision.. but i never really do... i just kinda sit there and let my body do the talking and all and the decision gets made by the ...

chicken without a head... i know.

by huge changes I also mean I moved out from my parents a few months ago following big family issues due to my psychedelic use which we disagreed on, however over the past couple of months i've rekindled my relationship with them, still live on my own, working for my rent, I guess I just want you to ...

My joining LU coincided with a destructuring of my meditation practice, having started a week or so before I even started this conversation with you. It became less and less frequent whereas for a period of a couple of weeks I managed to commit to sunrise and sunset meditations, it got harder ...

More muddle in my own story. Can't seem to do this... will get back to you when I get somewhere with this.. I will keep checking back OFTEN so if any thoughts arise containing advice, please do share. Work, people, etc (distraction) keeps getting in the way, but thats just the victimisation game ...

Should I keep reading through Gateless gatekeepers?