Hey Rikki, just wanted to drop in and let you know i haven't given up..still looking, investigating.


I've spent the last week kind of oscillating between the realization that its not me looking, and being caught up in the moment-the everyday drama of life, thinking the usual "I'm doing this, I'm ...

I had another series of glimpses that have lasted longer. Actually, it doesn't seem like a glimpse anymore, but something permanent that is knowingly experienced, but just being more prevalent at times. It was realized that there is seeing - but it's not me seeing or me looking. It's funny, it ...

It's a very subtle shift. That's why you may be 'missing it'.



I spent most of the weekend looking and reading posts here and on RT. I think i noticed that I'm waiting for that moment of realization, that shift. I think I've been waiting for some type of 'mystical' or 'magical' shift. So I'm ...

Sorry for the delay..work got piled on.

What happens when you try to locate 'me/self/a controller'? Focus there ok dude...

Nothing happens when I try to locate a me. For a long time it was that I was looking for an 'I' or trying to look at what is behind the 'I-thought'. There was no answer ...

Frustrating..but had a bit of insight yesterday. Seeing that 'attention' - not 'me' - just goes where it wants. Its like it automatically follows any object or movement. "i" dont do anything to make it happen.

And if there's no me, then no-self is being seen and experienced right now. It seems like ...

The a-ha moment is like a moment of clarity where I 'get it' for a short while. The first time this happened I was just meditating next to my dad when he was in the ER, and I realized everything is happening as it is - without me to make anything happen. It's almost like the thought just pops into ...

To provide a little more detail as to where I see myself, the following video that CFR posted shows an illustration at 2:22 into the video (and again at 3:30). See the tables appear to be different lengths, then he shows they are the same length. We know they are the same..but the mind won't let you ...

Been reading up here and RT for a couple of months now. Began medititating 6 yrs ago, studing zen, then advaita. Have had a few 'glimpses' - these amazing 'A-ha' moments, what the buddhists might refer to as 'inferential cognitions of emptiness' - but they don't stick.

Hi Rikki,

Yes, would appreciate some help with this.