Nick,

It has been awhile but let me know if you are still around and interested in continuing. I am.
Or I guess "I" am not actually. But you know what I mean.

Mark

I've been continuing to look but don't seem to make any progress beyond my above post.

I do have a question though. I was thinking of sending this by PM but decided not to. If I finally come to the realization that there is no "me", then, considering that life kind of sucks, why not just send the ...

I've been doing that exercise. Looking for the barrier separating me from the world. It's interesting in that such a barrier is obviously not visible. I've even noticed that if I hold my hand out in front of my face, my hand does not really appear to be "me" any more than the bookcase in the ...

I don't see any progress to speak of. Still can intellectually assent to the concept of no-self but do not see it. Concerned that i don't really know how to look. That what you mean by looking is somehow not what i am doing.

I'm back. Feel like I'm no further along. Are you there?

now you're face to face with this seeming witness or experiencer, and it's time to let go and allow this too to collapse. Just LOOK and try to find this experiencing witness, see if you can identify it or locate it. That's all there is to it. Really take a look and see if its really there or not ...

So here's the question for today - when you look at something, can you find any real separation between the object, the seeing, and the witness of the sight? Same with hearing. If you listen to traffic sounds or fridge humming, is there a separation between the source of the sound, the "hearing ...

So use the fear to help your looking. Let the fear rise up and don't hide from it or ignore it. Try to analyze the fear with a microscope and see where it comes from, see what's behind it. I can tell you that nothing will get worse from doing this process. Mark will keep on going just like he ...

I think the fear comes from:

Uncertainty about what is on the other side of the gate. What changes? Is there loss of motivation, inability to function, etc. frankly the white haired guy on the video on this site seems placid and not all that functional. The fear that this will make life worse ...

I assume that driving should actually get better without a "me" to interrupt. Kind of like aikido in mushin.

Thanks.

Ok. Starting with the jack-o-consciousness. Pumpkin with light. Recognizing that the light - while co-located with the pumpkin - might not be the "part" of the pumpkin.

Take a minute to look. Use your physical eyes and gaze around the room. You think that there's a pumpkin-like head there, that ...

Still here. Can't find a thinker. At times, it Seems like the awareness is just there in my head, like the candle light looking out of a Jack o lantern. But that whole bunde still seems like it should be the me. Not getting any sense of connection with any other candle light out there. Even when the ...

Driving home today in a small rain. The kind of random rain that desn't cover anything. In fact, it didn't require my wipers. As the drops randomly filled the windshield, it became clear that while I could be sure that there would be a next drop, I could not predict where. All I could do was look ...

Still here (in both senses of the phrase). Just haven't been feeling well over the weekend. Still trying to look though. Not sure I'm getting anywhere. Feel stuck.

your whole life you've BELIEVED that there was little man in your head. You've believed that life is like a first person movie and Mark is the main character. Yet when you look for this little man, he's nowhere to be found. In fact, he didn't go away because he was never there to begin with! This ...