Derek,

Ah. Yes. I might come here from time to time to ask about an aspect of experiencing. I hope you find me. But if not, may I PM you when "the dawn" finally comes, and let you know?

Also: ThankYouThankYouThankYouThankYou!!!

July

Good Morning, Derek!

What creates the impression that some "thing" is being pulled back in?

The answer to this is in the question you asked the day before:

Yes, keep watching how body-sensations and mind-dreams interact to create the impression there is an "owner" of the experiences, or the ...

Good Morning, Derek.

Have I mentioned that you're really good at this??

Yes, what I kept noticing yesterday was repeatedly being pulled back in: annoyance, resistance, reluctance, boredom. Labeling away like a mad mind! And experiencing those labels in the body. Such fun! And of course wondering ...

Good Morning, Derek.

So look at this sense of separateness, next time it arises, and each and every time it arises. What is it made of? What is happening in the body when there is an impression of a separate do-er or receiver or person to be alone?

I know I'm falling behind our promised schedule ...

Good Morning, Derek.

I understand about not wanting to "lead the witness," so to speak. And so I appreciate that you shared your perspective with me. Words cannot explain what "isn't," they just CAN'T.

It is as though it was only the stickiness that was creating the impression there was a "thing ...

Good Morning, Derek.

I've come to a complete mental standstill here. I can't explain what I'm seeing without using personal pronouns, and that's exactly what "I'm" trying to explain: it's not personal!

Starting with the simple:

You mentioned some time ago the sensation of the arm resting on a ...

Didn't I warn you I was going to be a problem child?

I'm glad my explanations were helpful. Certainly your questions here are helpful. But I need another day, this evening to think about them. So this is just a "checking in" post, and I'll be back to put words to what is in the morning.

Sweet ...

Good Evening, Derek.

Well, maybe I'm way, way off here. You have your work cut out for you! Maybe I need a bit of direction, because the question is always the same, and I keep thinking I have answered it. Apparently I'm just not seeing what you're seeing, or even looking in the same direction ...

Great day! I just posted a reply and apparently took too long doing it. When I hit "submit," it told me to sign in again and it's GONE! Yikes!! That happened once before, but I must have felt it coming. I had copied the post onto clipboard so I could just paste it in again. But not today, LOL.

It ...

Only one question this time! Am I wearing you down, Derek?

Is Awareness a "thing," and does it have any enduring existence, separate from everything else?

Okay, I guess that's two questions! I would say that Awareness is not a thing, but it is a constant. Also that Awareness is not separate ...

Good Morning, Derek.

I want to answer your 4 questions, as clearly as possible, according to how things look from where/what Is.

(1) Is there a "self" at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there is no "self," and there never was. If flotsam of thoughts clung together ...

Realized on my walk this morning that I could have summed up everything I said in two words: No labeling. None happening, none needed, none wanted.

Now I have your four great questions to think about. Maybe another walk is in order! This is pretty cool.
Thanks,
July

Good Morning, Derek! Looking at your questions one at a time this morning:

What you say makes sense. You've got to the point where you can see experience purely as experience -- for example, the sensation of the chair arm. You've seen that all these experiences can take place without the ...

Good afternoon, Derek.

You sense that Awareness is a "thing" that can sit back and watch, and that there is a definite Observer there. What, in your moment-to-moment experience, are you labeling as "Awareness" or "the Observer"?

I would have to say that I am Awareness because I am aware, and ...

Did I miss a day? Time seems to all be running together into one big observation session!

When your mind is chattering and one thought is followed by another, then another, then another, not necessarily in any logical sequence, who or what (if anything) is aware of these thoughts?

Well here's ...