Hi Becca,

Where is the resistance? How is it known (in direct experience, not interpretation)? Describe it.

The resistance is simply jumping on a particular thought and interacting with it through more thoughts until I realise what's happened. I usually then feel some frustration at how much it ...

Hi Becca,

I hope you're well.

I'm ready for my next pointer :)

I've been spending time with the thought 'there never was a separate self' for a few days now and feel I've stagnated a bit. I sensed energy building around it last week but in the last couple of days I've found myself resisting again ...

Holy ****, Becca!

I did what you asked and the first thing I noticed was my mind immediately reaching for a distraction. I could sense it saying ‘This is boring, let’s look around for something more interesting.’ But last night, for the first time in a few weeks, I picked up my copy of Liberation ...

Hi Becca,

I just want to say firstly that it's feeling very helpful to have a guide in all of this. My mind wants to jump around and read another book or watch another video but having clear instructions and 'accountability' has been something I think I've needed.

So there's a lot coming up for ...

Thanks for this Becca, it’s been very interesting.

Here is a thought exercise. Sit quietly for about 30 minutes and notice the arising thoughts. Just let them appear as they appear. Try your best to COMPLETELY ignore what they are saying and just notice how they appear without you doing anything ...

'It’s actually fear; the fear of the consequences of not taking responsibility'

What is here that is not a thought?

Nothing, it is a thought. From the thought comes a reaction that is more acutely felt than with other thoughts like 'that tree over there is nice' so there is an inclination to ...

Hi Becca,

Where is the sense of responsibility felt? How is it known experientially (not cognitively)?

There is no observable location for where the sense of responsibility is felt. All I can say is that I am aware of it. It’s actually fear; the fear of the consequences of not taking ...

Thank you Becca. You can call me Liam.

That's exactly what boredom - and the things I use to distract myself from it - feels like. I was diagnosed with ADHD as an adult a few years ago but it really feels like a coping mechanism to me; a seeking distractions from pain.

In my heart I don't feel ...

Hi Becca,

Thank you for your time.

As I write this now I feel less clear than in my last post.

When I wrote that I had experienced space and an undeniable recognising of the lack of "I", but if you asked me today how I felt I would have to say I feel like I've been pulled back into the game ...

update...

Since posting this I’ve nearly finished reading Gateless Gatecrashers and have felt an undeniable shift.

I can’t pinpoint it to a specific moment.

It slowly became more and more apparent that there is no ‘I’ and there never was.

My own situation resonated more acutely with certain ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I understand this to mean what I take for granted as 'I' is actually an illusion, another thought.

What are you looking for at LU?
About 20 years ago I read 'I Am That - talks with Sri ...