Hi Ash.

So I sat with all this today. I realized I added some unnecessary noise to this conversation, probably due to being stuck with this for a long while. I am really grateful for your time and all the questions. Thought content does not matter, even if at the moment it may seem to matter ...

Well... That if that was true , seeking would cease and questions like "what now?" and "how should I proceed?" would not show up :)

Hi Ash.


Would either/all/none of those be a valid experience if that was what got experienced?


How could it ever be an invalid experience if that is what actually took place?

Either would be a valid experience, as well as any other possible chain of thoughts and trust/distrust.


But those ...

Hi Ashton.


Nice. And when this happened, did it just happen on its own? Or was there a choice to seek? Was there a choice to stop seeking? Or did it stop on its own?

Did thought arise at any point? Before, during, and/or after the seeking?

It happens on its own. There is no choice. Thoughts ...

Hi Ash.

Do you still view memory and thought as the same? If not... or even if so... notice how thought doesn't require truth, at all?
I tried doing the exercise but despite driving in heavy traffic yesterday, I couldn't remember even one single silver car. So I did it with other things, that I ...

Hi!


it sounds like you may have noticed that there was only writing as an experience? Would that be correct?

Yes, absolutely.

But when I ask you something like "when you look at xyz experience" (in the past), I want you to give me your answer via memory, not thought.

Now this is confusing ...

Hello Ash,

rhapsody is fine. Thank you so much for taking me on.

No, there is no confusion when writing this. I've seen the body write, talk and do many different things perfectly (or not, haha), all by itself.

The confusion or uncertainty is about where I am at, what - if anything - I should do ...

Not that it matters, but autocorrect seems to have changed "shikantaza" to something weird :)

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
That the self is basically really a thought-based illusion.

What are you looking for at LU?
To see where I am, what is happening right now and to clear up my current confusion. I don't really ...