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I’m back home and settled. I can’t say I experienced much anger on my trip though I did realize I’m pretty good at suppressing my feelings and simmering. Sometimes I don’t even recognize what’s happening. I also realized I spend time trying to explain my feelings to myself rather than just ...

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I wanted to check in. I’m still on vacation and haven’t had much cause to get upset or angry. We’re out much of the day as well , so don’t really have time to respond. We’re back home on Oct 19.

Does the energy move?
How far does the heaviness extend?

I feel like the energy and heaviness ...

If you go looking for that experience, the mind can quietly turn it into the next thing I need to experience.

Instead, stay with what you actually have. The ordinary sensations you already experience are not dead or abstract. They're simply happening. :)

Yes! Of course, the idea that there is ...

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Thanks for your patience. I spent time during the retreat looking at some of these questions.
So there is a thought, a mental overlay of a controller?
Where specifically is the space that is imagined it to be?
Then take a look at that space, what is found in direct experience?

No, that’s the ...

Can you find the “I” that initiates the movement?
No, when I look for an I that causes movement I can't find any specific thing called "I". When I ask what causes movement, it doesn't seem like something "causes" the movement only that the movement is drawn within a space and that space seems such ...

What/where are these sensations? Be specific.
The sensations depend on the memory. For example, if I remember a recent bike trip the sensations include warmth form the sun, feelings of freedom, and joy, curiosity. If I think about memories of negative experiences, then sensations can include fear ...

What is actually present now?
Perhaps an image, words, bodily sensation, emotion.
What is actually present now are images, emotion, sensations, and thoughts about the event. But it is more than that. There are also underlying sensations of "it" having occurred.

Can the past event itself be ...

What is memory exactly?
What is the memory ‘made of’?
WHEN does the memory appear?
What is the exact difference between a ‘general’ thought and a ‘memory’ thought?
How is it known EXACTLY that a ‘memory’ thought refers to something that has happened?

Memory is just thoughts about my past. It is ...

Is there any kind of gatekeeper in control of attention?
No I don't think there is a gatekeeper. It seems like there are a number of things that control my attention. For example, sounds can draw my attention or thoughts, or sights can all come into my awareness and then draws my attention to them ...

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I went on a hike and just try to be present.
Conversation with friends = sound
Seeing the lake = sight
Birds singing = sound
Sun = sensation of warmth

I’ll continue to practice this. I’m more aware of my thoughts, how they come and go, worry about the future, or thoughts about the past, but I’m ...