Hello Becca! How long has it been? Long!
3 month almost.

We finished & moved into the new house - and then we went for summer holidays. And then we came back. and moved in for _real_.

And i've started with coming up with a new job for old me. I'm trying to follow my interests and passion and ...

Hello Becca! Thank you for the encouraging feedback! :)

> There’s much less strain in what you’ve written than there was a few months ago. :)

Haha, so we're in the acceptance stage now? :D

> Lovely. Glad you’ve stopped grabbing the steering wheel every five seconds haha. Isn’t it the same with ...

Hi Becca! :)

> Just checking on ‘you’ or the experience formerly labeled as Daniel… ;)

Yeah... i'm still here?! :D

HOW WHY WHAT i'm not sure. I'm still I. As I was before. Perhaps. Perhaps.

I'm kind of... not looking a lot at any of.. the more hardcore things I could be looking at, mentally ...

Hi! :D

I'm back in town! But you're Becca! (more back!)

Hi! So i've written the whole thing on a virtual typewriter today, which was real fun :P

-> for your inconvenience and nostalgia i've attached that as an image on a separate email.

I've also tried to clean up the text and will add it here ...

Hi Becca!

Ok, thank you! I'm gonna chew on this! :)

Thank you for the email too! I'll be in touch! :)

Hello Becca!

My thanks to the hacker who tried to remove the forum and take it hostage for Bitcoin that one day, who sent out an admin mail as well. That made me look again. I was kind of sad that he hacked it, but I'm happy that the admins brought it back, and I thought - Hey, i'd really like to ...

Hello Becca!

I'm still around, still there! Still thinking I gotta do things, I gotta do things.

Like - finding this darndest thing, this Gateless Gate! It sure isn't easy to find, because what is a Gate without a Gate... right... right?!?! OH NOW is that actually a pretty good hint? :D

A self ...

Hello Becca, thank you very much for your nice suggestions and feedback. I just wanted to tell you that over the last few days, after I did the exercises, I felt more aware and I took more notice of the beingness of myself in the world. I also noticed this brought back a bit more laid-backness and ...

Hello Becca!

> Step by step with this one. it is one of my favorites :)

Oh no! No pressure, right? :D

Ok, wall of text incoming! I can feel it! There were a lot of steps, so there's a lot to bounce off of here.

Let me see.

So really... I have to say... sorry... if this is one of your favorites ...

Hi Becca! Thank you for the detailed description!

I've printed it out so i can "practice" in front of a mirror :)

I've done it once... and I get a bit confused, but mostly by semantics I think.

I'll continue doing it! - and I'll report back!

Just wanted to give you quick feedback. Thank you and ...

Hello Becca!

Mmh.. i'll go through this, as usual, a step at a time.

Close your eyes.

With eyes closed, you will now experience 'blackness'. There may be other things you can find going on, sure. If you are looking at a bright light, there may be a red glow. There may be sparkly bits or cloudy ...

Hello Becca!

Strap in, this is a long one - this is the report I've started previously, with some additional remarks added later, and some observations of my visit of Ilonas' group meeting...

So it's pretty long.

Happy digging! And thank you for doing this.

Here goes nothing:

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>> Things ...

Hello Becca!

Thank you for reminding & thinking of me.

I'm still checking in on myself too - but it's been a bit slow the last days.

On the weekend I had a migraine and generally I've kept myself busy...

Also I rambled a lot into my text editor, but then stopped when I came to the last question ...

And a happy new year too of course! :)

Hello Becca!

How are you doing?

I've experimented with my hands.

Can't keep myself from making this silly remark: Hand goes up - hand goes down - can't explain that! (Not sure if you get the reference, but I HAD to write this. My hands are - what's the opposite of tied, DRAWN to type this ...