More like the mental itself is in fear..I feel that this whatever it is just has to tire itself out.

No I don't see a therapist.Things seemed to have moved somewhat this am. It's when I wake up that things are more clear for me and this morning what came through was I deserved peace..I still can feel this pull to bring me in fear ...and the fear itself is telling me I need it? The fear itself is ...

I've been depressed and nothing to say...

I think it hit in a lot of places in Quebec..over 300.000 without electricity..cause by heavy snow.

You think you think...but no..I don't...ha ha ha.

Big storm ,missed electricity for 2 days .since there are a lot of trees still lots of work from the damage of heavy snow.Still practicing DE .Difficult seeing my son sufferring so much ..intense times.

Can't seem to get very far with work sheet on death.Fear has come up the first thing upon awakening ,I see it ,don't really know what happens but it's gone.I know in my childhood it was through dreaming,through telling myself stories that I bypassed pain and fear..but when this fear comes up it isn ...

What are you practicing? Are you doing more Worksheets?
I'm practicing staying with what presents itself in the now...today I was in a lot of pain physically..so it brings up a lot of anxiety about death etc...so to the best I can, I'm doing the excercise on the 5 senses..seeing ,hearing ,smelling ...

Yesterday was really intense...a battle was going on ..the question of am I going insane ....a part of me knew I couldn't find an answer just permit..so fear and this feeling of insanity was present all day..am I insane or is the world insane...this morning the answer to this was there is no answer ...

nt! That is exactly the kind of shift in perception we are looking for! Could you describe it as expansive? The truth feeling?
During the day I pondered on what it was that happened during the night.It is more clear .I was watching myself dreamingbut was surprised that I was awake..like wtf? I'd ...

I used the judge your neighbour worksheet to see through this conflick I was living.I was so physically drained after hours of keeping my attention on this.I was so confused going through this,especially with this first time experience of resentment towards my son..I was so surprised that I felt ...

What or where is the helpline number..and just wanted to clarify what I mean by people feeder...in the end,I don't feel it is to please people but get ..so it's feeding off people.This needyness..yuck.....presents it self so much with my son which I switched all my missing love ,attention that I ...

With this deeper integration of there is no one out there I have no choice but to keep my attention on me and bring back my projections.So my trigure is my son.It's hard to express what is happening inside me so much is going on. Me.people pleaser,looks so nice,I'm so nice ,but all of a sudden ...

If not what did you mean
Is not having a seperate self like being completely empty, no personality.What is the break through is like falling into this place of there is no outside, no one..the pull of the outside has been diminuishing and it seems , if we could say it had a force, that this force ...

Can you find any separate self ?
I don't really understand tthis...
f not how does it feel to see this? Did you have a shift in perception ?

I feel like it's more full on than circling in the mind.My son is recently back at home after seperation .In my last retreat with Angello ,I had an ...