Thank you so much!

Hi Becca,

Don’t speculate.
Instead, next time you’re at work, don’t be on.
Let yourself totally drop the guard.

Do it and report. Not think about doing it.
Drop the armor. Let the “self” fail, collapse, disappoint.

What exactly happens?

Nothing really. When there’s freedom to just be, it ...

Hello B,

The investigation was not uncomfortable at all. Just noticed the tension there and had a little chat. :)


Does this thought continue to conjure fear? If so what is the underlying belief? If you don’t meet everyone’s expectations then…. what does/would that mean?

The belief that I need ...

Hi Becca,

Last night, I did the exercise you suggested. Here’s what I discovered:

It was a busy day so there was perfect tension in the chest area to explore. :)

I began by just getting quiet and noticing the tension. I did what I had learned from Ilona, and welcomed it, and asked it how it ...

Hello B,

I haven't had a chance to do this yet, so I will do it tonight and report back.

Funny... I've done something like this in the past and there was no problem. This time, however, I noticed HUGE resistance. Distractions of all kinds. Anything but this. I'm so curious to see what comes of it ...

Hello B!

I sat with this a lot. I looked for the owner of experience many times and during many experiences.


You’ve already looked, and you’ve already not found… so the illusion is no longer ignorance, but belief. A felt sense. And belief is just a looping thought that hasn’t been examined as ...

Hi B,

Thank you SO much for your patience and understanding. I don’t know if you feel/see it in the exchanges, but it’s definitely noticed here how I can be okay for a few days then seem to get swept up into believing thoughts again, and experience some turmoil that goes with that. It seems less ...

Hello,

So, questioning the line of thinking here about waiting.

The whole concept of waiting seems ridiculous now.
Who is waiting and when? For what?

- There's no person - it's just sensation and a bunch of stories; like a chapter book. Fiction, all the same.

- time is also non-existent, so ...

Thank ‘you’ - hello ❤️

Great. Now, can the volume on the radio be turned down?


I think so. Not sure how that would happen, though.


How is life these days? What is being noticed or appearing outside of these inquiries?

Is there anything that seems ripe to investigate or explore?



Funny ...

Hello -

QUOTE; “In the seen, there will be only the seen. In the heard, there will be only the heard. In the sensed, there will be only the sensed.”

Right now — can you find any line, edge, or border between “you” and “this”? Look closely.

Nice quote to sit with. No line, no edge, no border ...

Hello,

Let’s deconstruct some more!

I=awareness is a thought. It is not direct. It is not what is happening. It’s the seeker’s last line of defense.

Here’s how it works: you burn the idea of “self,” but then smuggle it back in through the back door as “Awareness.” Capital A. Nice and spiritual ...

Wow, Becca, there was lots to sit with. Here are my replies:

When you say “words flow,” pause.

What is actually happening? Don’t answer from memory or analysis. Let it stop you. Right now. Are you speaking? Are you hearing sound? Is there “a next word” arriving? Or just sound… followed by more ...

Becca, there's a lot here (in your last note) - - I'd like to take another day to sit with it and do the questions again.

Thank you!

Deborah

Hello :)

The whole subject of time is very fascinating and mind blowing. Something I want to spend more time with.


But is there an experience of the ’now’ moving along the line of time?
No.


Any experience of one ‘moment’ giving way to the next?
It seems that way. Speaking is an example ...

Hi Becca,

Thank you very much for your note and bringing so many things in my blind spots to my attention.
The last day and a half I’ve really done my best to stay focused on direct experience as much as possible. I’ll catch a thought or story and bring my attention back to a sensation or sound ...