I have wondered a lot about your bot.

Can't only Being point to Being? Is a bot alive with Consciousness? Isn't it a machine trained to repeat and write poetry without the ability to Feel it? And isn't it in our feelings where the doorway opens- and not in the mind?

Have some resistance to Ai. It ...

Hi Vince,
I have surgery this week and there's a lot to do in preparation for it. I will respond to your last pointers as soon as I can. I hope you are well.

With love,
Pattea

Vince,

So, just to drive it home... The only "me" that you find is a mental conclusion. Is this right? One that is validated by some sensations?
Yes - thought followed movement AS I realised that it was probably because I felt something familiar, that I assumed it must be "me". And I saw that ...

Hello Vince,
Back to this:
this is a big one. When you say "something sensed as me" I want you to dissect that into something sensed, and additional to that a logical conclusion that that is me.
Do it now. Look for that feeling and notice whether it is just a sensation and then the idea that it ...

Vince, I'm feeling SO lost right now. Been doing caregiving for a woman who is in transition now, and found out yesterday a former client whom I loved, passed in March.
I've sunk deep in doubt and depression, questioning everything I've learned here.
Body: real!
Grief: real!
Loss: real. And sucks ...

Vince,
I'm sorry for my absense - some family stuff.

Right now—can you find a self in direct experience? Not the idea of a self. Not the story. The actual thing.
No, no self, but "something" sensed as ME. In and out of this. Rage still surfacing and fiercely out of nowhere about stupid shit. I ...

Vince,

I listened to May 3 recording. I want to stay here one-on-one with you. Is that possible?
Thank you for your time with me.

Your last words:

Can you find anything in that aliveness that needs “you” to manage it?

No, there's nothing tangible to manage.

Or is it just happening — on its ...

Vince,
I'm vertical again :-) Thank you for patience. Picking up from your last post to me. Not sure if this is chronological or not - find myself struggling to keep track where I'm at sometimes. No matter!

You’re not disconnected — you’re finally not pretending to be the body.

Body is felt to ...

Vince,
This body is rebelling with illness. Will write in a day or two. Thank you for patience.
Love.

Vince,
Body has an illness- probably a cold. Will respond when I can.
In kindness,
Pattea

Vince- Have wanted to understand this in relation to direct experience. This is what it feels like- body is swimming is not "me".
Disassociation, is considered a form of mental illness related to trauma. Not sure how to think of this. Please help if you can.

Hello Vince,

What exists prior to the thought of "Am I something?"
Don’t answer. Don’t speak. Look.
What is found?

Looked. Just present. Here. Nothing else. No question necessary.

(ME) I am not swimming, but my body is.
Exactly.
When you say this (with memory) does if feel like a more accurate ...

1. Right now—can you find a self in direct experience?
Feels like self somewhere or how would have any experience. Who am I if not my-self. But have also felt at times, like when swimming, I am not swimming, but my body is.
Driving home tonight I experienced something I never have before. It was ...

An example of a Dan Schmidt meditation I use is below. It's on YouTube but I don't watch. just listen. I have recognized that Rupert does a lot of explaining, although his meditations within the retreat framework are very experiential. I'll leave him alone.

I also forgot to mention that I've been ...

Vince,
My questions:
1). I've been listening to Rupert Spira and sometimes Dan Schmidt via YouTube who both speak to non-duality, and some guided meditations from both. I remember reading that when working with a guide all other spiritual activities should stop. Is it necessary? I've come to depend ...