Hi Becca,

I don’t think I have yet seen clearly enough what needs to be seen. That said, I’ve felt a certain amount of giving up lately as well but probably for the wrong reason. This is not a small thing as it’s probably been 12 years of spiritual seeking.

I have just been battling a bit with ...

Hi Becca,

There’s still work to do here. It’s not completely clear and I’m sure you’ll be banging your head against the wall soon!

It’s like when acting from stillness there is really only one thing going on so a lot of the questions then seem obvious. I’m then looking at who is actually dropping ...

Glad you gave that update. No need to belabor it. Just do it once more and answer each question from your direct experience...
in other words, show me your work and i'll be able to see where/if you are 'struggling' :)

Hi Becca,

I went through this while I was on the plane back to work. I ended up ...

Hi Becca,

Struggling with the hand exercise. It seems to happen too fast to see anything. There aren't always thoughts that are detectable. The hand turns. Will keep checking over the next few days. Just wanting to keep the dialogue going.

As for thoughts, no they arise in awareness and ...

Hi Becca,

Thanks for the feedback.

It feels like a decision is made to drop into the space though I will continue looking at this. At least the question of doership is coming in fairly frequently.

The space is always present and has been for a good while now. 4 years ish. I just didn’t really ...

Hi Becca,

Thanks for checking in and sorry I’ve been a bit slack. Been quite busy over the weekend with my family(NZ time zone).

I get that I need to keep repeating where you led me the other day. I feel I can drop into that space at will and have been trying to operate more from there. (The ...

Hi Becca,

Your last post was very helpful.

I’ve been going to the mind for answers and ending up in perpeptual mental loops. I see you were asking me to stay out of the mind and look directly. The sock analogy was a good one.

I did the exercise and yes it is now clear the difference between ...

Hi Becca,

I'm still working on these questions. Really they're all the same question. I've been sitting with this and it feels like I'm going round in circles alright. Pushing on.

Hi Becca, thanks for the encouragement. Still chipping away at this. Again, not really editing this. Wrote must of this yesterday and have struggled this morning with a fair bit of emotional release. A lot actually so have struggled to really see the detail that I am trying to see in regarads to ...

Becca, I realise the below is a bit of a mindless rant and probably a fair few Rhetorical questions(for you not me)but posting anyway. Not sure if this is the right way or not. Cheers for being so prompt and soz for the delay here.

Is there, anywhere, an actual “I” who is waiting for this shift ...

1. What will be different when you realize there's no separate self?

I am hoping it will be the end of seeking and the niggling feeling that something is incomplete and needs to be addressed will be gone and life can be allowed to continue without resistance. What seems clear as per what I have ...

Hi Becca,

Thanks so much for coming back to me and offering your time.

I have read fully everything in the two links you sent and there is no doubt in my mind that I would like to press ahead.

Many thanks,

Mat

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
That the self that I have so far taken myself to be does not actually exist in the real world and is only a thought. On looking for this self no actual self can be found but rather thoughts ...