Thank you!

Sorry for the delay. It’s been a rough period of time…

There’s been a lot of turning towards the fear when it’s noticed and trying to seek this out. Until there isn’t!

There have been some really strong/sticky stories coming up that have been hard to shake. Just knowing they’re stories doesn’t ...

What's the longest you've been able to sit with what is and not try to make yourself feel better? Have you ever been able to sit with what is without the background intention of using "sitting with what is" to make yourself feel better? Have you ever meditated without the ulterior motive of "making ...

Hi Tyler. It feels useful to share that there’s a real sense of stuckness happening. Fleeting moments of seeing this as a story but it’s very much seeming to be identified with. A story of going backwards, being back at square 1. Thoughts can be seen as thoughts. The body is in at least one sense ...

As there’s an apparent movement between seeing (briefly) and not seeing, it seems the looking that feels to be ‘in the wrong way’ I mentioned maybe relates to the looking being from a believed sense of there being a separate me compared to a looking where this belief is maybe less influential ...

Whilst I felt I ‘knew’ this at some level, this was really helpful to be reminded of and to have direct instruction to take time to really look at this.

Meditation often doesn’t happen and taking time to sit and focus has been helpful. But with this explicit reminder, noticing became easier.

I ...

I guess not… though it feels like it is something I do.

It’s as though thoughts come up - some can be seen more readily as just appearing, whereas others seem to be accompanied by a sensation that makes them feel in some way generated and ‘owned’ - investigating it seems to be (at least in those ...

When things are not clear and you recognise that they are not clear, does any effort lead to clarity?

It seems to maybe depend. Things have definitely been getting easier and less ‘charged’ - though I’m noticing this seems to go ‘round’ almost like a spiral or a wave where things are easier for a ...

Today there has been a clearer sense of this being all there is. There being nothing to compare this too, as this is all that’s here! Though there can be moments of seemingly ‘losing this’. Like the mind getting caught in some kind trance where the eternal moment is not this still background but is ...

Sorry this is taking time to become clear for me…

Very much appreciating your time and help, thank you 🙏

Totally missed this reply, sorry...

This sparks a memory of one of my first realisations - where there seemed to be a full understanding of this. I recall this sense of 'oh, this [a feeling i would have ordinarily experienced as unpleasant] is just what is happening now too - how could I ...

Yes. At least that seems to be one way of experiencing it.

The main issue that seems to happen is thought happening with less awareness, less visibility, like them subtly slipping by and adding a conceptual layer to experiencing.

It seems remembering is important, as well as a kind of faith that ...

There just seems to be a ‘seeking energy’ that comes up, it’s as though it signals a need for some movement towards something. There’s just been an attempt to notice and feel this directly as it is, and not get caught in the thoughts it seems to fire up.

I think I’m getting better at not getting ...

No, there isn’t anything apart?

And yes, either side is part of the same experience - ‘this’.

The apparent charge of the effort and thoughts seems to be subsiding a little…

Hi Tyler,

I'm not sure if much of this is rhetorical but I've jotted down what came up in case it is of any use (though as thoughts maybe not - maybe attention can rest on the tapping of the keys instead...)

I think I see what you're saying about direct experience - this is where I've sought to ...