Hello Steve,

I suppose you're still on holiday.

I have continued with the investigation, but I feel like I'm stuck in a rut to be honest. On the one hand, I have this deep desire, as always, to see the truth and to understand what is the reality of my life ("my" life). However, the intensity that ...

Hello Steve,

I hope your vacation is going well.

I have been reading Gateless Gatecrashers and kept looking into the absence of self. While reading GG I have been very inspired by the people's honesty and directness, and it has helped me reinforce my determination to keep looking and reporting ...

Thank you for your patience and persistence in guiding me through this process Steve. Enjoy your vacation!

Thoughts are not important, the truth is important. Thought can be a useful tool if you are working out an algebraic formula in your head but otherwise they are a lie because they try and represent reality but are not reality. If they are not real then they are a lie. Is this statement a lie? Am I ...

Are thoughts important?

I think... they are far less important than they "think" they are.

If they are important, what makes them important?

They are useful for navigating the world, for communicating with others, for resolving some kind of specific problems...

What is the difference ...

Hello Steve, I'm very sorry I haven't had time to reply today. I have been busy with family but next week I will have much more free time. I'm excited to continue with the investigation. Thank you.

Did most thoughts just appear or did you design them then make them happen?

They just appear.

Did you feel free at any point?

No. It was more like I was going along with the flow of thinking without any control.

What did you achieve in the 10 minutes?

Nothing...

Were there any moments ...

Hi Steve,

I had an experience I would like to report today. I was walking down the street thinking about the non-self thing, and I suddenly felt like I was much more present. Like there wasn't a separation between "life" and the constant story I keep making about a separate entity that's supposedly ...

Hi Steve. I'm not feeling so well today. I will post tomorrow. Thank you. I will keep reflecting on the story and reading Gateless Gatecrashers.

Is there really something to see?

Ah! I get it. Yes. There's nothing to see. Just life as it's already happening. The reality is already that there's no self so there's nothing that needs to be seen other than things as they are already.

If you had your TV stolen or you never had a TV would you ...

When we use language in our heads to think, does it always tell us the truth?

Clearly not. Language is always telling stories which may not be true. For example, it can tell me that "that person over there didn't say hi to me because they hate me", but the reality could be that they are ...

Read what you have written there a few times. How can you really know when you don’t have something???? Really? Well, you either have it or you don’t. The belief in a self is just a lie you are telling yourself. You are looking for complete certainty about a thought that just comes and goes. STOP ...

What is found?

Yes, there is a contraction in the chest as I think of the lie.

"Peaceful" or “anxious” is an interpretation of a body Sensation, not the Sensation itself, for example.

Do you see that?

Yes. This is clear.

I just knew. But how can I know that I have really ‘seen no-Santa ...

There is no self, no doer, no controller and there never has been.

Is this true?

Okay... I'm looking in DE. I can see there is just the "flow of life" happening, and I can see how this doesn't need a controller. Everything is happening without the need of anybody "doing it". Then I notice the ...

Hello Steve.

I have continued to explore this process and the idea of non-self during the last few days, and I notice I have a strange experience. I feel like I get an "understanding" of non-self, or like I get very, very close to "seeing it", and then there's a moment (this is hard to describe ...