Hi Rali,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
Experience happens ...

Hi Rali,

Drinking tea -- seeing, tasting, feeling, smelling
Driving -- seeing, hearing, feeling
Talking with a friend -- hearing, seeing, feeling
Sitting in a chair -- seeing, hearing, thinking, feeling
Falling asleep -- seeing, thinking, feeling

Just checking in to let you know I was taking my ...

Hi Rali,

Standing in line -- feeling, seeing, hearing, thinking
Walking outside -- seeing, feeling, hearing
Drinking tea -- seeing, smelling, tasting, feeling
Brushing teeth -- feeling, tasting, smelling, hearing
Taking out the garbage -- seeing, feeling, smelling

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Is there still doubt about ...

Hi Rali,

Talking with family -- hearing, seeing, feeling
Drinking water -- seeing, feeling, tasting
Driving -- seeing, feeling, hearing, thinking
Scratching an itch -- feeling, hearing
Drinking tea -- seeing, smelling, tasting, feeling

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There's still a tendency to think there must be more to ...

Hi Rali,

Eating lunch -- seeing, tasting, hearing, thinking
Washing hands -- seeing, feeling smelling
Meditating -- feeling, hearing, thinking, seeing
Cooking dinner -- seeing, smelling, hearing
Sitting at desk, typing -- seeing, feeling, hearing, thinking

What has changed and what hasn’t in ...

DE should be to something (what) or no one – you either can see the owner of expectations or not, right?
Yes

There is only right here-now.
So look again (ONCE) and tell me if you can find anything to which/whom expectations belong?
No, I can't

How does it feel to see what is actually here ...

Again, does it matter what the descriptions is?
No

Does the description affect the experience somehow?
No

Is there any meaning in the experience without the story?
No

Is doubt real?
No

Is knowing real?
No

What does “doubt” look like in DE without the story?
Just what's happening ...

Hi Rali,

What makes sensations and thoughts different from experience? Are they not experienced?
Sensations and thoughts are experienced. Didn't intend to imply they aren't

How are “knowing” and “believing” different?
Just as you described -- Another aspect of 'knowing' is that there is less ...

Hi Rali,

If you look for the I, what is there?
Experience, sensations, thought

If I say there’s no doer, thinker, experiencer, decision maker, or a witness, what comes up?
Thoughts about how to figure out whether 'I' actually actually 'know' this as opposed to just believing it.

Where ...

Hi Rali,

Does the frustration come from the story or it exists only in the story as a label of experience (i.e. feeling)?
It exists only in the story as a label of experience

Is there a frustrated Brian because he is not awake yet or just feeling/sensations and a conditioned label?
Sensations ...

Hi Rali,

Cab the actual experience change or just the story about the experience?
The experience is already happening, so just the story

Now press a finger to head, throat, and chest at the same time. Does that feel like “frustration”? Or “frustration” is only appearing when there is a story ...

Hi Rali,

And does the description come even close to the real experience?! Do you see how the experience “changes” with the descriptions (labels)?
No, the description isn't like the experience. There has been little success in changing the labels at-will to see how experience changes.

What ...

Hi Rali,

If you are still not “convinced” you can do this exercise. Bring to memory a situation where you experienced “anxiety”. Try to feel the raw sensation. Then bring back the “frustration”. Feel that raw sensation. Now compare both and describe how there were different without the labels and ...

Hi Rali,

When you ask “what is there” then you actually see what is really there instead of just seeing who is not. Does that make sense?
Yes

Is an owner or experiencer (i.e. of “frustration”) needed for knowing_experiencing (or aware experiencing) to happen? Or THIS happens vs does not happen ...

Hi Rali,

Thank you for the clarifications. I am unable to respond tonight, but I should be able to tomorrow.

Best,
Brian