Hi Stacy,

Thanks so much - just nice to close things out with you as well. Thank you so much for everything and please send my thanks to Henri and the other guides as well. I so appreciate both of your efforts with me over the last 1.5 years. It's nice to be here and watch beliefs and old mental ...

Just checking in - I got an aftercare private message and am wondering if I’ll hear back here on the answers I gave or if we’re done and that’s the graduation 👩‍🎓? Would love to close this loop with you.

I’m listening to BKs book - what a trip. Not all of it makes sense yet but it’s amazing to me ...

Funny, my practice motto (for couples work) is More love in the world, one couple at a time. I love your plan - I'll have to join you when I've found my feet!

Hi Stacy,

Will do. And I just wanted to say thanks for your pointer to The Work and BK's book - it's been helpful. Listening to her really helps me see and get a picture of her awakened state, and that is helping guide me as I fall and try to figure out what is true for me now...

Hi Stacy,

No worries at all - it’s helpful to figure out the language for these things. I feel like my thinking brain is working to catch up with my experience so this helps.

Why assume they come “into awareness”?

This was a language problem - thoughts just arise and (I) become aware of them ...

Is there still a sense of seeking?
Less, but sometimes, yes. Always when I’ve re-identified with my mind. The other day my mind got going on a negative topic and awareness was caught in the storm and I started getting distressed. And then the blessed thought came - “oh, I can just ignore all of ...

Yes, the illusion is shattered. I am not here in the way I thought I was. It’s all a pretty amazing 3-D movie…

I think it will just take time for the knowingness to permeate my experience…

Hi Stacy,

I watched to video and I can see the doubt is just more thought. The underlying belief is that there should be “more” in the shift - I’ve heard so many stories of others experience and it being an obvious, pronounced shift (eg laughing for days, profound peace) and while I have had a ...

I wanted to answer these to see where I am at, and help me shape my experience. I feel very in and out of focus. It is hard to digest what I now know, but my recent experiences make things I was thinking about (e.g. that color doesn't really exist) so much more understandable and truly relatable. I ...

Yes, it is settling in but I see it. I woke up without anxiety this morning - I wondered but now I think it was so - the anxiety was about waking up. Funny you mentioned the movie The Matrix because I thought of that movie yesterday and thought of the moment Neo “popped” (threw up) when he realized ...

I was able to attend Vince's meeting today - that was good for me. I feel more settled now. I need to re-watch the "falling" video because I'm there now in a way I haven't been before. I can see how I will have to re-organize a lot. Thanks again for your support. I will keep at the experiential butt ...

Thank you for your quick response. It is reassuring.

I will keep LOOKing. I feel like a kid who has just found out there is no Santa. Anxious -> then mad -> then sad -> then relaxed. A bit of "Fuck. I've believed all of this. I've suffered so much believing this shit. None of it exists" but there's ...

Can't remember if I told you - I'm getting the notices again. Must be that somehow I accidentally turned that off so glad I found it and got it back on.

I can feel my mind resisting where this is going...

(2) Then open the eyes and look into the mirror while still paying attention to the ...

Can it be known how tall the body is? Does the body have a weight or volume? In the actual experience does the body have a shape or a form? No to all of those. Without images, I notice the sensations move around. I also noticed that it was hard to focus on the sensations - the longer I looked the ...

I would love the pointers about the body. I'm ready for it - I feel like I am taking things in and able to use them; what's not important now falls away.

I will keep looking at ButtChair (and I am generally looking at body sensations when I do that - I assume that's okay?)

Thanks!