Great, you can see it: the screaming, the labelling, the judgment, and the relief that comes when the mind doesn’t hijack the experience. That’s clarity. But now — this moment — what are you doing?….
You’re identifying again.

“I’m trying.” “It’s hard.” “It was clearer yesterday.”
Stop.

Look NOW ...

Hey I am sorry. I have tried multiple times to respond. Wouldn't come up at work or home.

Anyway,

Now look again — right now, not in memory:

Where is the one who’s stuck?
Find it. Don’t explain. Don’t analyze.
Just point.

Can you?
Or is it just a sensation + a thought = “I’m stuck”?

The one ...

Stop right there.

You are not stuck! You are not failing! You are not missing anything. You are not who the thoughts say you are… even now.

This heat, desperation, intensity is not AGAINST you. It is the final death throes of the illusion. The real trap now would be believing that the appearance ...

Yes. You’re looping.

What do you mean? Groundhog Day? Continuous pattern of thinking and sensations?


Seemingly me
Right now — without running to thought, without explaining — what is “seemingly me”?

I messed with this quite a bit this morning. “Me” is a sensation. I kept going back and forth ...

I wrote an entire response and somehow delete so i will paraphrase.

It’s evident from all fronts, thoughts make this character. It’s observable by something m, call that awareness or whatever. Kind of doesn’t matter.

Where is the I in the sensations, not there. Witnessed as well. No I in the ...

YES. Because You’re not just circling the flame anymore — you’re in it. This is the breaking point.

Right now. Let a memory arise. Just let it be there. Do nothing. DON’T INTERPRET. Just Look.
What is actually present?
Is there anything but a mental image or narrative, floating here-now?
Is there ...

Another layer to be examined. Almost everybody believes that a memory thought is referring to something that has happened. That a memory thought is a different thought than a non-memory thought.

Please don’t go to thought explanations, but just let a memory be there, and look at it. Look at what ...

Hold on.

That’s the old voice again. That’s still a “me” looking at “life.”
Still a split.
Still a story.



Pause here. Is there truly a separate “I” that’s a part of life? Or is this “I” just another thought arising within life itself?

Without a thought, it’s just this. It’s pretty clear ...

Hi Becca,

Been awhile. No good reason I didn’t respond to your last guidance.

Just kind of blah lately really. Stomach bug. Lot of sleeping.

Far as I can see, “I” am a part of life. Thoughts arise in that part. When I can stay in this observing, things are as they are without much else.

There ...

Hi Becca,

Still in the game. Busy week. Ups and downs. Been having calmer meditations with really experiencing openness. Also been reading a book that has discern concepts from reality. Has helped to see things better.,

That said, still struggles.,still consumptions with thought and sensations ...

Made me laugh. Partial guess. Partial truth. Partial hint from someone.

Sat for awhile during lunch and just was quiet. Everything seemed at the moment calm. Saw this person differently. Understood briefly that it wasn’t me. Saw the suffering and wanting to be free. Saw the struggle. Saw the ...

What’s before thought?

Silence? Openness? Peace? Stillness?

Is there any actual “thing” in there, experiencing this loop?

Or is the loop just running, with no one in it?

Becca, without thought it just is. Just sensations, seeing, hearing, etc.

With thought, with consistent looking, it’s only thought that gets mistaken as truth.

While doing the ...

Be honest. It’s all thought. I see it. It’s thought wanting to know “who or what is aware.” It is thought that freaks itself out. It is thought that fears sensations. It is thought that responds to thought. It’s evident. No different that Santa Claus. But it’s not the same response to finding out ...

Ok this is what I saw today-

1. Looking for a self in a thought or emotions isn’t possible. Repeatedly did that. And not there. I felt guilt. Looked for who felt guilty. It just arose and stayed longer with my attention and concern. Still feel it a little actually:(

2. There is no way to ...