Hi Elad,

Just to say I am at a big choral festival this week. I plan to stay at it, but I won’t have as much time for meditation and reflection as usual.

Thanks for the heads-up, enjoy.

Let me know if everything was clear in last message or any questions?

Exercise:

Listen to the following talk. As you listen your job is not to agree or disagree, get or not get it (although thoughts about agreeing and not agreeing, getting and not getting might happen - just thoughts!). "Your" job ...

You are doing well. The key now might be: Understand it is not about getting rid of the sense of self. It is instead just recognizing crystal clear that it is just another appearence that happens by itself and has its role in normal life, and it is not in your control and not a real self. A real ...

And do the listening and just noticing/feeling reactions exercise again with the the next youtube of "enligthening quotes" (number 2).

Annoying because I still have thoughts about wanting to achieve that. There’s a mental habit to have those kinds of thoughts.


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Good to notice. There is of course also a paradox here, because no one can wake up, and yet life can change a lot for the apparent someone...

Continue not ...

a) At times there was a sense of seeing things a bit differently and my sense of ‘me’ felt different, like a bit trippy. It’s happened while eating where everything was kind of new and distinct. It also has happened while talking where there was a sense that ‘l’, Tash am not the one talking, like ...

A series of self-referential thoughts arising that are constructing a me that needs to “get it” - I.e. understand and do a good job of seeing through self.


Is there actually "a me" that is constructed from thought? Or can there only be thoughts found - including the thought that a me is ...

The most prominent thing is fully recognising that I am not the initiator of anything - thought or action. I have been feeling like I am watching myself go from thing to thing without quite knowing what is coming next. This feels pretty liberating as it loosens my feeling as though I need to be ...

Got it.

What are the effects of this process so far?

How do you feel about it?

Yesterday i spent the day with my dad who has Alzheimers, strolling and sitting in nature. He's become childlike in his wonder of things: the colours of a leaf, the rain drops, a child cycling past. The best way I have learned to be with him is to really 'Be' with him, exactly where he is. Not ...

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Sounds wholesome.



Identification appears to be loosening.


a) How so ?

b) And: Is there still a belief that there is a self ? If yes, how does this belief show up in direct experience here and now?

c) Here is an exercise to further deepen clarity:


Hand on desk

Please close your eyes for ...

Everything you say sounds like you already are not finding a self... Or are you finding a self that you believe is real?


I don’t think I am finding a self that I believe is real, just a sense of a self that I believe is not real.

I think I could embed this further by continuing to practice ...

I have an expectation of a sudden experience of not finding anything there

Everything you say sounds like you already are not finding a self... Or are you finding a self that you believe is real?

Is anything missing?

Great, very clear, no self is actually found, nothing that the sensations and even the beliefs belong to. Its all open process just being what it is.


Here is another pointer exercise, helping to look deeper at:


Explore ‘Sense of Self’

Let’s say that you have lost your keys and you swear that ...