Hi Warissem

Ok. I’ll wait for the invitation to the LU group on Facebook.

Thank you very much. :)

All the best for you.

Abigail

Hi Warissem

Looking at it, I see that there’s nothing that could have gone different.
When I wrote the message that I said I shouldn’t have written, there was no way it could have been different.
I just wrote it.
I see now that there’s no doer.
But I also see that the feeling of regret appeared ...

Hi Warissem

I took some time before answering your questions, because I wanted to be sure about the answers, and do it the best way possible.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
No, there is not. And now I can see that ...

Hi Warissem,

Thank you for your replies, and for Ilona’s text.
She says
The idea of loosing control is as scary as the idea of death
I think that’s the fear I was feeling. I didn’t fight it, just recognized it for what it is, and right now it’s mostly gone.

The other thing that made me realize ...

Hi Warissem

Today I woke up, again, with a strong feeling of fear. Many thoughts about my life situation and current events were coming, for a justification of this fear. But I think it’s part of the process of seeing things more clearly.
Is it possible? I read about it somewhere, that it’s common ...

Hi Warissem

Sorry for not reply earlier. As I mentioned on the email, last Saturday I spent the whole day with a sensation of fear and disorientation. I couldn’t even think very well. Yesterday was better, but it was a busy day with my family.

Today it seems that the clarity is back. It’s like ...

Hi Warissem

The last days, since I last posted, I have been feeling very different, much lighter, with much more clarity in the mind.


Keep looking at direct experience : see if there is you doing things during the day (walking, eating, writing, reading, speaking, thinking, working, …)?

I have ...

Hi Warissem

Right after I wrote my last post to you, I started to read the book “Gateless Gatecrashers”. I had it on kindle for a while, but I only started it the day before yesterday. And it was really helpful. It helped me to see where I should be looking. That, together with some other videos ...

Hi Warissem

Here are the answers to the questions about the thoughts:

Where are they coming from and going to?
They come from nowhere and go nowhere. They just appear.
Did you do anything to make a particular thought or thoughts appear?
No, not during this exercise.
Could you have done ...

Hi Warissem

You asked what is arising when I read this:
There is no you, no separate self in any shape or form, it never was, it will never be.
The first feeling, and it’s very quick to appear, is a feeling of relief. There’s nothing in myself that opposes to this idea.
Sometimes, during the ...

Hi Warissem

I was planning to reply yesterday, but I had a case of “mind attack” that lasted the whole day. I hadn’t had a mind attack in many days. I mean I had a fixed idea that would not leave my mind, over and over, and it made me feel bad, with a contraction in my body. I knew that the reason ...

Hi Warissem

I did the investigation as you suggested, using only direct experience.

Without going to thoughts, what is yourself ?
Where it begins, where it ends ?

Closing my eyes, and focusing on the senses, I could hear all the sounds around me, there was a visual perception (of light ...

Good evening Warissem,

It’s very interesting to notice how the labels and the experience they suggest are so charged with the conditioning of the mind.

The word “ green ” , written like this, makes one think twice and have two different experiences, one of the label “green”, and other of the color ...

Hi Warissem

Does the fruit disappear ?
Is it here from the beginning ?

The fruit doesn’t disappear because it was not here from the beginning. There never was a fruit, only my thoughts about its characteristics.

Hi Warissem,

This “me” is not a specific sense, related to seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling or even sensations.
It’s more an idea, a thought.
The “me” is an idea, a thought that seems to control and observe the thoughts, and behaviors…
Even when I was investigating the sensations body, I could ...