Hi Vivien,
Thank you so much for helping me with this. Your questions and guidance have been a great help to me.

I wish you all the best!
Erik

Hi Vivien, here are the replies

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
There is no “me” anywhere in this experience. I don’t find any sign of an entity, a “me”, residing anywhere, in any form, and there never was.
2) Share in ...

Hi Vivien,
Yes I am ready

Thank you,
Erik

Hi Vivien,
Is there any change since we started this investigation?
What changed and what hasn’t?
I would say that the more noticeable changes started to happen during the weeks before this investigation started, due to seeing the absence of a separate self. For instance, noticing the freshness ...

Hi again,
The previous replies may not have been useful, as I only wrote what was in my current direct experience (sight and thought), this is how the content appears in experience,
Is a thought actually experienced as a sound?
No, in experience thoughts and sounds differ in their nature of ...

Hi Vivien, thanks again.
These are the bare bone, no story replies.

Is a thought actually experienced as a sound?
In direct experience, there is sight and thought
Or a verbal thoughts is just the imagination of how those words would sound if they were spoken out loud?
In direct experience ...

Are there two ways of thoughts or do you find more? If yes, please do give an example.
Thoughts are just thoughts, they appear as sounds or images in experience, and they make up stories. Putting thoughts into categories is a story about how thought-stories belong to categories. Story about story ...

Hi Vivien, thank you for the help.
Can a self be found making the body leave the bed?
Where does the "decision", the "command" to get up comes from?
What makes the body get up?
Is there an ‘I’ that commands the body?
When lying there, shout 'GET UP' internally as loudly as you can. Does that ...

The reason for asking for further inquiry regarding concepts and stories is the following,
In my daily experience, thoughts mostly comes and goes in the background, to themselves. There is space for them, and it doesn’t feel like I am the thinker of thoughts. There are seldom any gripping and ...

In what way or form intention shows up?
A thought-story appears about why an action needs to be taken, if the story is believed in, then it is labeled as intention. There is no inherent intention in reality.

Is there anything to intention than a thought saying “I intend to…” , “I want to ...

Hi Vivien, thank you so much for the help,

Is there any doubt?
Wherever I look, I can't find a separate self. There is no doubt about that.

Is there something that is not totally clear and you would like to look at?
I'd appreciate looking a bit at intentions, and how it is that decisions ...

Is there any place that this current experience is noticed/looked at/watched FROM?
Is there any reference point? Any place to locate?
To try to clarify, the objects appear where they are, and it is from their location that they are seen, in one whole, unified, field of vision. There is no sense of ...

Is there any place that this current experience is noticed/looked at/watched FROM?
Is there any reference point? Any place to locate?

Experience is self-illumined, self-aware, everywhere watched from itself, by itself. An already present wide awake self-illumined experience, without a head ...

We have to clearly differentiate between understanding (which is a thought based learned knowledge) and experiential seeing…. This is essential.

So, can you experientially see what you wrote in the above quote, or rather it’s just a learned knowledge, and intellectual knowledge?
Yes, it is seen ...

Thank you so much for taking the time with me

So what you are really after are these qualities. That’s your ultimate goal, isn’t it?
Yes, reading about all these types of states/awakenings, it has always been wanting to obtain these qualities, like relaxation, peace, relief. That has been the ...