Hi Vivian,
Thank you for all you time and patience through this process. It has been truly amazing and life changing.
It is amazing how we think we have all the answers until it is seen that we don't. This must truly be frustration for you as it is seen how arrogant I must have been in the beginning ...

How does it feel to see the illusion?
It is noticed that focus is so much deeper than previously. There is an enhanced awareness of the people in it and the surroundings.
For example, at work, there used to be a feeling of being part of the chaos. Awareness of the whole picture was not recognized ...

Seeing that the self is just an illusion is intellectual understanding or a visceral one?

It is seen that the "I" is an illusion.


And when there is the thought of ‘I’ is there an ownership or a doer?

Only in thought does a doer exist. It is clear there is no doer.

And how does a belief ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
It is seen that there is no “I” no doer, no self anywhere. There was a belief that there was an “I” but is seen that this too was an illusion.
When deep looking it is clearly seen that ...

So seeing that the self is just an illusion is only about disappointment, and no other feelings? Nothing else, just disappointment?

Everybody has different experiences when seeing the "I" does not exist.
It is seen that feelings are labelled in thoughts which are just an illusion.
It is noticed ...

And what’s the disappointment about? What is disappointing about seeing that the self is just an illusion?

Maybe there is something ought to change, is supposed to change, hence the disappointment?

This is an expectation. An expectation of how things were expected to be. Nothing needs to change ...

Disappointing? For who?
Who is disappointed that Brenda is just an illusion?
When you ask how does it "feel" to not have Brenda, the feeling was disappointing.
So how was "disappointing{ felt? There was a sensation that was described in a thought as disappointed. there is no "feeler" anywhere, the ...

Hi Vivian,
Hope things are well!!

How’s does it FEEL to see that the Brenda is just an illusion?
It feels disappointing to see that the Brenda is just an illusion and it shook up many core beliefs that are slowly dissolving.


What has changed in normal everyday experience since the start of ...

Could you please tell a bit more about this?

Is there still some search?
Did you find what you came for to LU?
Are you satisfied with the investigation?

there is nothing more to say. There are really no more questions, as it is seen questions are just part of the illusion.
There is definitely ...

So has there been a shift? Could you please tell when exactly you felt the shift from intellectual understanding to experiential?

And how the shift itself was felt?

The shift was very subtle and happened during the walk to work. Focus was on the sensation (of walking), and then that is all that ...

Tell me what's left of Brenda. When checking reality, does she still exist?
"Brenda" cannot be seen. She is part of the illusion and nothing more.

And if so, can you tell me, what's left of her or how and when she appears?
She does not appear. Only sensations and thoughts appear.

Is there a ...

What is it that is feeling these sensations?

There is "nothing" feeling these sensations. Sensations appear followed by a thought that labels how these sensations are felt.
There is nobody or nothing that is feeling anything, The "feeling" is only seen in the thought or the illusion.

What are ...

Hi Vivian,

Just look at the cup, and while looking at it, try the find the EXACT PHYSICAL LOCATION INSIDE THE HEAD where the cup is being looked at FROM. Where is this location?
There is no exact "physical location inside the head being looked at from" that can be seen.

The image (cup) is seen ...

It’s not enough to logically conclude that there is no looker, but it actually needs to be SEEN that there is nothing doing the looking.
Can you see the difference?

Yes. I do.


Just look at the cup, and while looking at it, try the find the EXACT PHYSICAL LOCATION INSIDE THE head where the cup ...

So, please sit down, and just write down what is happening in this moment and use words that best describe the experience as it is.

Sitting on the chair, there is focus on a sensation. A thought appears that labels the sensation "there is a pain in the stomach". A new thought appears "you should ...