Thank you for walking me through this journey. I appreciate all your patience and guidance. There was a definite realisation on Monday or Tuesday night that changed everything.

Thanks again

With love and gratitude
Billy

Can you see how and when this illusion of separate self starts ?
No I can't.
Where is the decision made then?
I don't know. From nothing
This "beliefs of the mind" are they anything other than thoughts?
Are they governed by anything else?
Do they exist?
Nothing more than thoughts. Are not ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
There is no seperate entity and never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience.
Describe it fully as you ...

Ok. I don't have any questions here.

Ready for the 6 you have for me.

Hi Verananda

Definitely seeing all being thought and only thought. No I, self, controller. Its easier to see in everyday life and it becomes clearer

Nothing else? No life beyond clarity rising and vanishing?
Definitely life on charity. More life. A slight feeling of peace arises. Not a thought ...

Hi Verananda

At times I see clarity and have it 100%. Then I get stuck in thought streams and old beliefs raise there head. I end up analysing to much. Then see a snippet of clarity.
That's where I've been for the past day or so. What is the best way to see the clarity simpler instead of getting ...

Good evening Verananda

Greater clarity on realising that thoughts are only thoughts. More clarity on what was once believed that "I" was making decisions to realising the decision is made prior to thought. More able to sit back and watch the thoughts flowing through mind. The habitual thought ...

Sorry Verananda.
I was away camping for a couple of nights and had no signal. I have been watching the process over various things that have been going on.
On deciding to go kayaking. The decision was made somewhere and came forth in a thought. An action was then taking place. E.g. walking down to ...

Ok so thoughts pop up and than one of this thought have the content thats labled "decision".
The important question here is: do you have any control over any of these thoughts poping up or not or different?
No control. Just thoughts popping up


If not, why dont relax and watch the show?
Yes. I ...

Hi Verananda

Sounds like an I that can decide with what to go ...?
No.. your right. The I is all just thought.

Is there an I that can realise its just thought or is there just thought?
Who or what can distance itselfe from something?

It's all thought. There is nothing else. Only thought is ...

Hi Verananda

I feel like I'm going to crack. Lol. Seem to think seen it then not. Maybe I'm not getting deep enough. Frustrating it is.
It's also not easy to write down what I might be experiencing. When I refer to "I", it's in reference to what is observing the thoughts, whatever that may.

So ...

and who or what makes decisions?
I don't know. It comes from nothing.

what does it mean to your real-life-example and other smaller everyday life decisions?
I try and go with what comes into mind first. I try to not get attached to the thought streams. Realise that they are just thoughts ...

Good evening Verananda

Is "Mind" anything more or special that thoughts?
Nothing more than thoughts

Is a "belief" anything more than a thought?
Just a thought
Next time when the though stream about business opportunities an the "right" decision occures, take a step back. Just let the ...

Hi Verananda

I had answered all the last lot of questions and lost the lot.

I have much clarity on this but shall write tomorrow as it's late now.

Sorry for the delay

Love
Billy

Evening Verananda

And then tell me exactly: What are you in control of?

I have been looking at this in everyday life. Been repeating the exercise.
Nothing. The thought is after the decision. It's so easy to believe that thought makes the decision. Mind really does not want to let that go. It ...