Hi Merrick! Here are the questions:


1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was
there ever?


No, there is no separate entity 'self' or whatever you wanna call it. Never was.


2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is ...

No problem!

Let's proceed to the final questions

Look at the questions I'm asking lol. The conditioned mind is still there (it's supposed to be, I know), so it seeks security. But who is it that seeks security? No one.

As I now truly see that there is no 'self', it feels easier to let go now of security and just remain in wonder. The questions ...

There are no 'contents'. There's nothing around 'me'. Just emptiness/nothingness. I now see that the mind makes things out to be 'contents of this/that'. This is weird and funny at the same time lol.

I guess my question came as a form of wondering about what happens at "death". For example, as they ...

There’s a zen saying that suits your situation now.
“When you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.”



I understand what you're saying


The “Enlightened Masters” is your image of masters and has nothing to do with enlightenment. They shouldn’t be capitalized. lol



lol yes

Why make such a ...

So what is this? This isn't what Jed McKenna/Enlightened Masters has right? Is this simply the beginning of a new journey by truly seeing that there is no 'self'?

Oh I just thought maybe you didn't see my updated reply lol. Please take all the time you need to reply, I didn't mean to rush or anything!


Oh, got a short question for you:

Do you feel a kind of shift (however small) happened?


Yes I do. I don't really know how to describe it, but a shift ...

Hi Bananafish, are you still there? Out of town again?

Are the television and shows separate?


This is a question that has confused me for a long time. If there are no shows on, the screen is still there, but nothing is being watched. Is this nothing, a something? I'm getting theoretical so I'll just answer the main question.

TV and shows/Awareness ...

Ok. Please elaborate on what "less self" and "more self" are.
Also, please tell me what "state of awareness" is.


Upon exploring these questions, it seems they do not make much sense. "Less self" and "more self" doesn't make sense. There is no 'self'. Maybe there is "less thoughts" and "more ...

In other words, although I feel this 'delusion of self' a LOT less in daily life, and live life more harmoniously with everything that happens, it feels more like a shift in DEGREE rather than a complete shift in my STATE of awareness if that makes sense... In other words, I feel like I am ...

Do you have anything you want to further explore?


Although I KNOW I am 'having silent expectations' blocking me from reality as I said, I still feel like I need to get through this further. I don't know what it is I am looking for, but I know I'm not "there" yet. Or maybe I don't know if I'm ...

Hi Merrick! I'm back.

How do you see the self now?
Could you describe what the "I" is?


Hi!

I really don't know anymore what the 'self' or "I" is. Before, I would "THINK" I knew what the self was or rather, was not, but it seems like even that intellectual 'understanding' was a blockage to my ...

Did it feel like a big shift?


The spaghetti experience did not feel like a "big" shift in itself.


Any changes in your everyday life?


Yes! The rational side of me says the changes are difficult to pinpoint to a particular reason due to many changes in life lately. But I have to say, since ...