Hi Wesley thanks for your reply.

If things change, or simmer down a little it is normal there is no need to fret.

You helped me See. Now I cannot Unsee. Also fretting is no longer an issue. You know why. Aaahahaaa Thanks a bunch.

There always seems to be lots of people waiting at the gate, and ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for your reply.

I will try to answer your questions as best as I can using words that are self limiting. I hope you'd understand and forgive me if I have not explained well.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for your reply.

Do you feel ready then for the final questions?

Please ask away kind Wesley.

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Mona

Hi Wesley, thanks for your post.

Great, yes please do put it in your own words!

What should I say? I am speechless. If I attempt to put it in words I will make a mess of it.

All my bs has died a natural death.

So then do you feel complete here?

No 'I' feels complete. But there is ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for the reply.

So Mona, do you feel you have any further sticking points? Is there any lingering doubt, that perhaps somehow somewhere there's a separate self?

OK Wesley, I think I am ready to say the words I never thought I'd be saying because I hated those exact words when ...

Hi Wesley,

Thanks for your reply.

I suggest remaining with the approach of "how do I know this? Where's the proof, can I see/hear/smell/taste or touch this thing, and if not what is it than?"

I get this one loud and clear.

You don't see sounds, nor do you feel sights.

Yes it is not a raw ...

Hi again Wesley, there was an urge to reply to your mail soon after reading it. But, I wanted to give you the most honest answers after Looking. I read your mail several times. Initially, I felt like saying, " I know what you are asking me to do, but, as a meditator for 7 years, that is all I have ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for your time.

Now in the same fashion as the example above, please describe to me the direct experience of "all that is happening", or "life".

All that is happening in this immediate moment is typing. Sensation of touch. Raw sensation cannot be named. The fingertips have a ...

Sure Wesley, no rush. I am going out too. Thanks.

Hi Wesley, continuing from my last two posts ...

So what happened since I posted last night ...

So I understood all this a bit more yesterday while replying to your message. At a deeper level. But, I keep floating between, " I understand it " and " What was it again ?" There are moments when I ...

.... Ok I am back from my break.

So I went downstairs to think this through. Something has shifted big time. Downstairs I thought, I said 'sensory input' too. But moments later it dawned upon me, "Sensory input gets processed by Mind.' So those too manifest as Thoughts. So basically it is all ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for the reply,


If there is duality than there should be a division point. Where is it? Where does experience happen exactly, and what is it separate from?

There is no division point. It is just the word Experience that doesn't do justice to the actual event. The experience is ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for the reply,

When you say 'there IS awareness' does this make it an object, is it a thing?

It's not an object. 'Phenomenon' is the word that does more justice.

Or is it more like a happening, a verb, a process?

Yes it is a happening, a verb, a process. Just like ...

HI Wesley, thanks for the reply.

What is this 'something' that exists?
I have no clear cut answer for that. Honestly, I don't know. Maybe, as awareness. Something that is self aware. No particular doer but there is awareness. Yes, there is just awareness. That is it.

Where is 'I' in any of this ...

Hi Wesley, thanks for the reply,

Can you give me an example of what being free-from-thought would look like?

In every situation. But, for example - Like say washing the dishes is washing the dishes not arguing with the boss in your head. Washing dishes is 'swish swish' not ' How can he talk to ...