Hello Kay,

Yes, I had a lovely Christmas and I hope you did too.

Congratulations, and welcome through the Gateless Gate. There are no further questions for you. It has been an absolute pleasure to walk with you and point the way. Thank you for being so open and willing to LOOK!

Thank you once ...

Dear Kay,

I am going to ask some other guides to have a read of your thread to make sure I have covered everything. This may take a couple of days and I will get back to you when they respond.


That's fine.


I wish you and yours a richly heart-full Christmas.

Thank you. I wish you and yours ...

Dear Kay,

In retrospect, "I" had taken charge of my journey to find the truth, and "I" had therefore maintained the illusion of an "I" that was separate from the seeking.

Just elaborating on one piece of my reply, as I didn't explain as well as I might have, and a better explanation might help ...

Dear Kay,

I've answered your questions as best I can. Apologies if it's a long read :-)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No, there is no separate self, and there has never has been one. Life will just continue by ...

Hi Kay,

So there was actually nothing to find, except what "I" really am, which is the totality of experience here/now (which sometimes includes thoughts about "I").

Yep and there is no such thing as memory, where would a memory container be stored? When are those seeming memories actually ...

Hello Kay,

I have been on this "quest" for the truth for many years without it reaching a conclusion. What I am finding about this inquiry with you is that it is the looking and the various exercises that are making a difference.

Is there really a “collection of actual experienceS”? Is THIS ...

Hi again Kay,

Just adding that yesterday evening "I" experienced a period of complete selflessness. Everything was present, but there was no-one experiencing it.

:-)

Alan

Hi Kay,

experience is indescribable

Yes, I'm fully there with this. The raw experience just IS. I don't need to do anything for the raw experience to be there. It's already there.

So, it was clearly seen that there is no one/no thing that is choosing or deciding, as well as there is no one/no ...

G'day Kay,

How is it in Oz, usually very hot at this time of year. I spent a while there some years ago, and remember going to the beach on Christmas Day!

Yes, so what is the AE of spoken/verbal ‘thoughts’?
The AE of spoken/verbal thoughts is thought. Similarly, the AE of an imagined image is ...

Hi Kay,

Nice post….you are doing great guns!

Thank you. It is getting easier for me to identify the AE.

Yes, so what is the AE of spoken/verbal ‘thoughts’?

The AE of spoken/verbal thoughts is thought. Similarly, the AE of an imagined image is thought.

Turning the hand over and back:

How ...

Dear Kay,

Since thought seems to precede every action, if I don't control thought then I can't control anything else either.
And when you say that out loud to yourself, what happens in the body? Does a sensation appear, does it feel light or heavy, does fear appear?

There is sense of feeling ...

Dear Kay,

There is no process. Thought happens automatically. I don't control it.
And what happens when you really take that on board, that you don’t control thought? Since you don’t control thought, can you control anything else?

Since thought seems to precede every action, if I don't control ...

Dear Kay,

I've done some more exploration of thought.

I can suppress a thought by thinking other thoughts.
And how do you do that? How would you know to push away a thought unless another thought appeared saying so?

Please describe step by step, how you would bring forth other thoughts to ...

Dear Kay,

Here is what I've found about thoughts so far.

Did you do anything to make a particular thought appear?
No, thoughts seems to arrive automatically.
Could you have done anything to make a different thought appear at that exact moment instead?
No.
Where are they coming from and going ...

Dear Kay,

I’m looking around the room. (There are a lot of different items present).

Before thought there is just a completely unlabelled image (areas of light, dark, colour). If I pause my my eyes on something there seems to be a knowing what that thing is, before I put a name to the thing.

So ...