6. Thanks for guiding me ..very skilled

5.decision,intention ,choice ,free will and control.

These are all just happening without a self running the show .
Eg I lift my arm ...there is physical movement and maybe a thought “I have lifted my arm” or maybe a thought “my arm is higher and ham it was before”
I decide to lift my arm .....is ...

2 bits .1.realising that just cos I forget something that I know to be the case from observation doesn’t make it not so 2. Realising that my habit of making certain thoughts special (eg quiet thoughts) was simply a thought
I had already seen the reality of “no seperate self “ when I started this ...

It feels a big relief not to carry around a big weight on my back claustrophobically choking me from the reality of “direct experience “ ie just a thought ,just a sensation experience

2.the illusion of a seperate self is created by thoughts describing experience to other thoughts that there is a seperate self . On examination at all times one simply finds experience(physical ,thoughts ,sense of aliveness ) but no self . The self is and always has been a very convincing illusion ...

Answer to q 1 ....no to all bits

Sounds good .. no there was never a stone or shoe

And the “no I” to forget of course

Yes this has really clarified what was the “stone in my shoe” it as if I wanted more than just the absence I always find . This would commit me to an infinite amount of looking for an infinite period of time .. But I have found no me and I have found nothing to look at etc etc how can I forget what ...

Great excellent little pointers .
Have just gone through them now and all is as you say and this feels like my final clarification piece .. will look more today and get back to you ty

Hope that is clear

If I get drunk or if I forget to pay a little attention to what is happening i can not notice that “thoughts are just thoughts”etc when I bother looking or simply pay a little attention to what is happening I find “nothing”
My experience when I pay that attention is invariably a profound sense of ...

No nothing in need of conviction

Hi Mathew
Very busy at moment ... so the delay ..
Feel very at ease mostly ...nothing much sticking ! but want to look more and see if I continue to find nothing !

Hi Mathew have been looking last few days at those questions and have yet to find a self in any of the exercises just decisions,thoughts etc
Will keep looking and get back to you with more thoughts 😎