Hi Amrita,

I had tons of questions before but now there is nothing coming up. Like you said, things may come up as life goes on.

Thank you so much for your help and guidance. I really appreciate your support.

Sending love,
Etienne

Hi Amrita

What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
The whole idea of control. I think there was something that kept trying to control things and do something that got in the way. Once that was understood, I could relax and just be.

Describe decision, intention, free will ...

Hi Amrita,

Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

Wow, I'm not sure. It's a thought that isn't even experienced as a thought. It's experienced as an unquestioned reality. It's the ...

Hi Amrita,


Interesting. I'm very aware now that when I close my eyes there seems to be a never ending stream of thoughts and images. My sleeping patterns have been different.


Can you say how your sleeping patterns have been different?
I think there used to be more of a routine, but now it ...

Hi Amrita

Apologies for not getting back to you sooner but I was away in nature and hopefully we can pick up our conversation where we left of.

Lovely :-)

How are things going with you?
Interesting. I'm very aware now that when I close my eyes there seems to be a never ending stream of ...

Hi Amrita,


To be honest it's very liberating and a bit spooky (in a cool way) at the same time. There is something that does not want the illusion to end but it seems to be fading.


What exactly is the "something" that does not want the illusion to end?
Whatever it was it hasn't come back up ...

Hi Amrita,

Take one of your hands and put it in front of you palm facing up. When you are ready turn the hand over so the palm is facing the floor. Turn it back so the palm is facing up. Look really closely at what is happening. Are "you" deciding to turn the hand or does it simply turn of its own ...

Hi Amrita,

A person's essential being that distinguishes them from others, especially considered as the object of introspection or reflexive action.

It seems from your answers you have a very loose sense of "self" or I-ness already.

Thanks for that. I guess I can say that I don't think then ...

Hi Amrita,

When you say,


The watcher of thoughts feels right. Behind the thought there is an awareness that I am conscious and here while the thoughts are occurring.

When you said that there is no "you", that didn't seem right because I know that I am here and aware of what is happening ...

Hi Amrita,

Looking at the sensations in your gut - is there a self that can feel fear?
No, just the awareness of the sensations and me labelling it as fear. It's like the awareness of a contraction or unease.

Can you accept the sensations in your gut without resistance?
I can accept the ...

Hi Amrita,

OK sounds interesting.

There is absolutely no "you" in any way, shape, or form. No "you" thinking your thoughts. No "you" living your life. There never has been a "you" nor will there ever be.

Take those statements deep inside. Really let them sink in.

What physical sensations do ...

Hi Amrita,

The aim of this inquiry is to "see' there is no self at the centre of experience that is controlling, interpreting or influencing life. There is simply experience (sensations, thoughts, images, sounds etc) occuring within the field of awareness. There is no self necessary to hold it all ...

Hi Amrita,

What state feels healthier or more real, the feeling of being seperate from images or the experience of "stuff that is just happening"? Take some time to explore these two "modes" of being.

I have been exploring both states and I think they both have their merit. That being said, "the ...

Hi Amrita,

Can we have awareness without an object?
I have been aware when there are no objects, sort of an awareness of the nothingness or an awareness of awareness.

Let's look at the sense of seeing now. Look at any object in your room or environment. Can you find a self or I that is doing ...

Hi Amrita,

With your eyes closed become aware of any sound in your environment. Can you find a self that is listening to the sound or is there just sound?

There is just awareness of the sound along with thoughts sometimes that comment on the sound.

Is there a self that is hearing or is there ...