Hi Andrei,

Warm thank for everything!:) life is different now that I don't have to please my 'I' all the time.

I would like to join fb group.

Elli

1. Can there be found an separate "I,me,self" by any sense you have? Do you have any doubts ower the thought, that no separate me exists?

No, there is no separate self in any sense I have. I don´t have any doubts over the thought that no separate me exist.

2. Have you been able to see the ...

And Sorry, my real name is Elli:)

And I'm thankful to get your help!

I think this Conversation is getting to confusing to me, so maby I just try something more simple. Also perhaps my English is a little bit too 'weak' to really somethimes say what I have And have not experienced.

It's hard for me to get into feeling just By thinking them (like I'm going to be alone ...

So now we're back at: You think you can control/direct your thoughts/feelings one way or another?
Because we talked about this and you told me that's not the case. Hence me being confused.

No, I don´t think you got me right.

What exactly is your reality right now? Where are you situated? What ...

Can they harm you? Are they your enemy? Or are they just there, doing their thing, doing what they were programmed to do?

I had to try this plenty of times, because `I´ would like to stop it and do something else. They are just feelings, not here to harm me but my body gets really tired if I only ...

So was your suffering for nothing?

In now monent such a thing As suffering Do not excist. It's only life hapoening And I making it's own reaction what life may or might not mean. So it was just life I thought was bad life. Life with label.

Yes, I have been seeking And trying to understand How ...

What is the "mind"?

There really is not such thing As mind. It's something learned. When I look where it is, I can not say. It's illusion. It is only thinking happening, thoughts happening

You already know you are not your thoughts, so my question is, how come you give them so much weight?

It is the same fear we spoke earlyer. Fear that all my suffering was for nothing, because there is no I. That there is no life if I dosent excist. I started laughing when realised this..so absurd.

That reaction is somewhat "natural". It's a defence mechanism that might not even be connected with the belief in the self.

Yes, I get this reaction a lot with people. I can handle it And nowdays it is easyer just to smoothly focus to the body And pressure in my body, that kind of Blurrs the ...

So maybe we should get back to talking about stuff that represents a problem for you and dismantle all these resistances that create a barrier in front of your "seeing

Thats ok!

Not sure how to say this: You don't seem to have acquired that freedom that people who have seen through the illusion have. You're still very much caught in the rat race the mind is surrounding us.

Yes, when some feeling comes, I realise that it's just story my mind has created And I have been ...

When you are not in the here/now, then where are you? Where do you go/do to not be in the here/now? And when you are not in the here/now what does it look like to make it look and seem different to the here/now?
It is illusion my mind is creating. Offen I need to calm myself before I can really ...

Not sure I understand. Do you control the body? How do you make the body do something?

No, that´s impossible.

Is this "cutting the story" something happening naturally or do you have to force it somehow?
I ask because "cut" sounds a bit forceful, like there is "somebody" in there who doesn't want or is afraid that the stories are going to take over again.

By cutting, I mean `calming´ my self. So I´m able ...