Hi Nina

I'm sorry for such a delay, I haven't been engaging with this at all. Don't know if it's just busyness or resistance. I'm trying to streamline life, it fees like too many eggs. It sounds like we're nearly there and maybe I'm bailing out. I don't know, it's a shame.....I hope to get back to ...

Hi Nina
Don't worry about time. It is just another concept!

Oh that's good cos I don't know where the time has gone this week and I kept meaning to post then getting busy doing other stuff though I'm aware this is meant to be best done every day, so will try and keep that momentum up.

Ownership ...

Hi Nina

Thank you for your huge patience...I feel I'm on the edge but not dropping in to seeing this, though I really know about it. I imagined it would take a few weeks and I realise I first contacted you in April so that seems to be a long time - is it? So I really appreciate your guiding and ...

Is there an "experiencer" or just experience?

Hi Nina

I've been staying with the focus for the last week, while going about my day and also sometimes in meditation.I'm aware of waiting for a penny to drop and I don't feel that's happened, but maybe that's conceptual and I have some idea of what ...

Ok thanks Nina, will do and will post back in a few days. xx

Hi Nina
None of the Louises in thought can pass the gate. Is that a worrying 'thought'?
That's not a worrying thought, it sounds like quite a relief, not to be carrying all those Louises around! But I'm not sure at all what does pass through the gate. I can't imagine it.
What knows about the ...

Hi Nina

Sorry for delay but I posted a reply immediately but it looks like it didn't come through. I wasn't clear on what you were saying and was waiting on that before saying more! Hense delay.

Anyway I just wanted clarity - you said 'which is an emotional experience' were you were referring to ...

Thank you, lovely to hear from you too!
It is all very simple. You don't exist and never have done. All there is and all there ever has been is colour, sound, smell, taste, sensation all overlaid with thought. The thought tells a story of 'me' in charge, driving and owning experience.
I think I ...

Hi Nina

Don't know if you caught my last post - it was a little while ago and I haven't heard from you? So just posting again. I've known all the way along, in thinking, that Louise only exists in thought despite strong feelings of her real existence, and looking at what Louise is in direct ...

Hi Nina, in actual experience working things out happens in trying to make thinking concentrate and come to some conclusion or result. So it happens in thinking.
Looking for Louise there is a felt sense of this character. Looking at that there is a sense of physical space amd expansion around it ...

Is it possible now to really move in on this "thing" that seems to be constantly "you"?

Awareness separate from experience can not be found.

Yet 'something' remains seems constantly " you".

What is this exactly? Is it a sensation that is familiar? Is it a thought of "Louise" or is it this ...

Hi Nina, so sorry for not replying sooner - just been super busy at the start of term. But I have been looking & honing in on what is Louise....I need dash now but am home this eve so will write more then....Louise

Hi Nina


Is there anything about those sensations that suggest "foot" or "leg"? Is there any shape to them?

Absolutely not - no defined shape. I feel various sensations and there is a picture in my mind of the shape of the parts of my body. Despite the thought that this is a clear picture I can ...

Hi Nina, I'm replying on my phone and can't do quote function so will just rewrite and reply. Thank you for this focus this weekend. Looking at sensation, sound, smell, taste etc there is the detail and neverending flow of that happening, sometimes more in awareness, sometimes eclipsed by thinking ...

thought becoming cross. Ha ha I like that expression!


Try sitting in the chair, eyes closed.
there are sensations ... difficult to describe in words.
Sensation changes with movement.
Is there anything to say there is a "chair" there?

Yes there are lots of sensations, hard to define any edges ...